Christmas Outing!!!

nice outing last evening!!! was on public yesterday... been so long since i last took the train with my buddies.... met 2 of them at yishun mrt 1st cabin and set of to ah meng cafe at cuppage centre... chitchats and some catching ups... its been months since we last had an outing... though just 5 of us but we truely treasure every minute.... was planning to go KTV after dinner.. but gosH!!! tok big time.. abort the idea and went to check out on the seatings of Narnia... too bad left a few bad seatings... so off we went to yishun 10 to check out the timing but couldnt get the seats we wanted.. so next stop Northpoint starbucks to discuss our next gathering... got a call wishing us merry xmas from one of the buddies who couldnt join due to work... gathering ended at ard 11pm... they walked me to the nearest bus stop and waited for my bus with me... so touched.. been so long since we last chatted at a bus stop... lol... love u all!!!

What's Your Workout Style?

when it comes to working out, you're an All-Arounder

Boredom, beware! An energetic and enthusiastic exerciser like you doesn't let monotony enter your workout world. You probably rank high in coordination so trying out different sports or classes is what really helps you flex your muscles and get your heart pumping.

Maybe you'll try a yoga class one day, scale the walls at the rock climbing gym another day, play a game of tennis the next, or go for a long bike ride. It's all about mixing it up for you. As they say, variety is the spice of life. So keep flexing, dashing, and pedaling your way to fun and better health!

Merry Christmas!!!!

Had a normal but a happy xmas gathering today =]
woke up late as usual.. wash up, had my early lunch and went to causeway point to get my xmas present. Went to body shop.. nice stuffs but too "Last minute" xmas present idea... there's still time so proceed to hunt for my ideal present... came to the precious thots booth and saw this very nice photo frame... it just caught my eye.. i love it... later saw a cute teddy bear at the opposite shelf... it has a "take me!! take me!!" look... without a second thought i bought them... slightly out of budget but i know my friends will love it... was on public today... was early and waited for ard 30mins at the mrt station for my friends... took the train n headed to junction 8 for the movie "KING KONG" watch it for the 2nd time.. nice show but some kids sitting beside me cant keep stil... keep distracting me.. haiz... feel like bashing them.. wahahaha!!! *notti razzy* took my friend's car and headed to clarke quay after the show... went to brewerkz for dinner... had a combo set... 1/2 chicken, ribs, potato and i ordered a pint of Golden Ale beer.. nice... have a slight malt after taste.. took me ard an hr to finish my food... simply too big a portion for me... but managed to finish them... the whole stretched is packed with people... so we went to novotel hotel lobby for gift exchange... nice ambience... nice xmas tree, nice sofa, no ppl.. just 10 of us... took lotsa pictures and rush to the mrt station for our train before the crowd starts... dead beat but I'm so HAPPY!!!! still... everyone misses our last christmas at concorde hotel... hehe... MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Freedom!!! a long lost feeling...

been almost a year!!! finally i can walk along orchard on a weekday... wat a feeling!!!
took my bikey for full servicing... bikeless today... took which ever bus reaches the bus stop first at upper serangoon road and drop myself at North bridge road... went to Bugis junction for some window shopping... looking for watches, spectacles, bags, clothes, swimming googles and passport cover.. only managed to buy the pasport holder.. one and only item which caught my eyes... the wordkings best describes my feeling today... "DO I LOOK LIKE I FREAKING CARE?" woooo!!! I'm Freed.. wakakaka!!!

Finished my window shopping but dun feel like gong home.. so took a quick walk from Bugis junction to orchard road... havent had my breakfast nor my lunch.. went to the nearby NTUC n bought a bread, 1 mineral water, 2 pink dolphin drink and a carrot juice eat n drink while making my way to far east plaza... took me ard 1hr to reach.. was sweating n can feel my heart beating fast... WOAH!!! i miss that feeling... when was the last time i walk tat distance.. cool!!!

reach the all time fav shop.. saw auntie... chit chat for a while and make a move... wanted to walk home... but not too sure of the way... so again went to a nearby bus stop and let the fate bring me to my destination... =]

last day @ work

YEAH!!! finally my last day after 2 weeks of struggling....
busy as usual.. clearing the bits n pieces.. no time to do handover and my claim form... urgghh!! left office at 7+pm... i didnt cry.. glad that i've made the right choice after months of struggle... at least... i know how much i'm worth in the company and finally people see how important i am... *bleah*

will have to buck up even more!!! *MOTIVATION*
HOPE I CAN MAKE IT>>> AND I WILL MAKE IT!!!
*YEAH!!!

time is crawling....

my last two weeks of work is damn torturing... keep rushing me to clear as many as i can... was so pissed... supposed to do my handover stuffs... *ANGRY* anyway.. i've made my stand... just dun push me... the volcano is going to erupt....

miss u so much...

time flies... her 1st death anniversary.... 2004 today... i couldnt believe that she had left us until i went to her wake... until i see her lying motionless in the coffin... even till today... her smiles are still vividly imprint in my memories... tears flow whenever i thought of her.... miss u so much Linda.... how i wish i can ride with you again...

is it me?

told my brother abt it... he shared the same thinking as budd... y continue working and slaving for ***... they dun wont appreciate the efforts... they will just think n count how much i can bring in... all they know is to make us stay OT and give more work when its time to knock off... just make it a clean cut and have no more deals with them....
need some time to shuffle my thoughts...

go razzy go!!!

LEAVE ME ALONE

I'm tired... just leave me alone.... at least for this week...

heartless creep...

His dad passed away... he didnt see him off his last journey.... his sister-in-law passed away.. he didnt even bother to go for the wake... wat a heartless creep... the grandaunties and granduncles keep asking y he didnt come... what excuses can we give?
Y do we have such a man in the family... *angry*

RIP.... my dearest aunt

dun wish to accept the truth until i see her with my very own eyes.... lying motionless in the coffin, looking so aged and shrinked...almost cant recognise her... tears started to flow uncontrollably... i missed the last chance to visit her... to chat with her... to say once more goodbye... mum told me she asked for me last sunday... miss me a lot... but it was too late... i never get a chance to hold her hand and say i love u... my dearest aunt... Rest In Peace... god has ended your sufferings and lighted you to heaven with my love in your heart... thanks for all the love and care you have given me... you will always be in my heart... your greatest wish and my greatest regret... sorry for not calling you God mother.... Tomorrow... 23 Nov... our last journey together... your smiles, your laughters.... will be safely kept in my heart.. I love u always....

merry go round

after 5 years... decided to turn the table...
he just dun see how stress n how busy we are... just think of $$ n $$$ n $$$$$
no appreciation.. no gratitute... just MORE OTs!!!!

time to turn the table 180 degrees and let him see what we have gone through... its not always about $$$$ i rather u cut my pay get another freelancer to help out to clear the pipeline then to make me slave alone.... employer will never ever know how an employee feels...

why make the pipe even smaller when your food is choking and screaming for help to expand for some air... something is wrong with your theory... u better think about it... not gonna forgive and let you step on my head... time to be naughty.. time to rebel... time to make u fall hard and feel what we are feeling now...

is that a threat or what?

want us to work "EXTRA" hard so that we can get our pay in time.. What is this? a threat? official knock off time 6pm.. we left at 639pm u also want to interfer...
6pm times up u came in n ask me to do this do that... What is this? EXPECT AGAIN?
anyway... the paper is done.. prepared to throw in anytime...

my friday and sat

knock off early... went to 2nd link meet kaka for petrol + welcome ahbang aravi and ahbang affi.. but it was too jam at the customs... so we did a uturn and went to the nearby petrol kiosk to wait for them... waited for abt 30mins.. ahbang aravi reached... kaka was so happy... hehe... we went to KTM for dinner and kaka bring ahbang to his hotel.. and i went to 2nd link alone to pump... nice slow ride there... and back home..

sat... woke up at ard 10am... went to fix a main stand for my bikey... finally... my side stand can get to rest... lol... went home have a nice shower and rest for a while.. overslept... woke up at 4pm.. quickly change and rush to my bosss place... he is having his hari raya open house... nice food!!! YUMMY!!! me n lesley loved the potato with soto soup... best!!! left at ard 7pm n went back home to transfer some petrol to my car... later meet kaka and the 2 ahbangs at woodlands area for dinner... first time "eating" with malays on a same table... i didnt eat but wow... though friends but they really serve each other food before then take for themselves... and the eating style is so different from us... was feling kinda out of place but we started chatting after sometime... after dinner.. we shoot off to GP... feels great riding with them... surrounded by 3 bmw bikes and kaka as sweeper.. nice ride we top up at esso and went to petronas to see them off... can see that kaka is feeling sad... her eyes are red... awwww... gave her a nice hug when the ahbangs left for KL...

reach home at 12+am... feeling tired but dun feel like sleeping... watched tv till i fell asleep... till 6+am woke up and drag myself to bed... lol

my first bike accident....

a totally different feeling...
the feeling when i got into a car accident is like.. "wow! the feeling was like playing bumper car"

was on my phantom today... due to the rain earlier and the wet roads... my brakes are not working properly... was coming out of the filter lane to the expressway... the pickup in front of me slowed down as the main road was packed... i was going slow at ard 20~30km/h quickly brake to stop as the braking distance is getting nearer n nearer... that split second i was telling myself... i'm gonna crash... i'm gonna crash.. I'M GONNA CRASH!!! fishedtail a bit and i bumped the pickup and drop the bike on my right... landed on my right thumb trying to balance and not sit on the ground the driver didnt realised until he saw me trying to pick up the bike... came n ask me.. u got bang my pickup? i was like... sorry.. i did... tyre kena the bumper... can check see if its ok? he didnt care much for the car... just wanted to help me get the bike up... but i did it before he tried to offer help... he went back to his pickup after seeing i'm ok... and waited for a while before he move off... *phew* HENG AH!!!! couldnt start my bike at first... waited for a while... managed to start my bike after some time.... check my bikey thoroughly when i reach my carpark.. luckily only found a small scratch on the brake lever...

tempation

been wanting to upgrade since i got my class 2... but loan and the interest kinda put me off... do not wish to spend tat extra thousand for nothing... just cant convince myself after months n months of struggle within me. just have to keep my backside firm n stop "scratching"... my current ride is good enough... brought me to places without fail... just the thought of selling it saddens me... shall keep it till *********** hehehehe.....

looking around for kidney belt, riding boots, leather jacket and my dream helmet... feel like going track with my baby... yoshi, ohlins damper in my list pending... should i ???
have to really think n make my decisions... leave or not?? really dun like the feeling when he keeps coming n to spy on me.. see what i'm doing... damn annoying... pissed...

u pay peanuts.. u get MONKEYS!!! dun expect more

Big time blue monday... my photoshop application hang on me.. i have to use another pc to do my work.. argghH!! whole morning client keelp calling for this for that while i'm working on another project... he came in n ask for this n that... 4 projects on going at one shot... finally get to find time to work on the "abandoned" project.. he came in again... n ask me to do the other projects first... damn... wait till client start calling and i have to take the blame again right?? pissed... left with 3 days to finish up some bits and pieces... hope i can really get back to client before he comes after me... 545pm... he came in again n ask for changes... CONFIRM ALREADY STILL WANT TO CHANGE!!!! *arggh*

"i feel eeky" he said... and kinda hint hint abt that incident 2 weeks ago... so u want to tell me its my fault?? the one who said "nevermind nevermind" is U not me... trying to shift the blame on me so that i can slave for u out of guilt?? u better clear yr other "NEVERMINDS" before another hit comes...
i dun have to report to U where i go after office hours or Y i take leave... tats none of your business... dun u have a family?? when was the last time u bring yr parents for a nice dinner.. ASK Yrself.... $$$ isnt everything... u can have tons of $$$ in yr acct... but u wont feel happy becos u didnt share with yr loved ones or the one who loves u... please spend more time with yr family.... u earned enuff...

hint hint n asking me to make decisions... so wat? want to give "xia ma wei" so that i can work OTs for u to keep the job? i rather give up my job for the trips than to give up my trips for the job...

still in dilemma.. should i stay?? feel so stagnant again... not learning anything.. what he promised me is not fulfilled... AGAIN... *disappointed* should have taken my friend's offer... distance to work is longer but at least the pay is way off better than what i'm taking and NO OTs!!! confirm AWS n VB... *imagine riding my new fully paid for bikey to work* *abish razzy*

feel like going for a new environment... design should be a hobby than a job... at least i wont feel tired when the thought comes.... *dilemma*

torture. decisions...

after weeks n weeks of torture deciding which to get... finally decided n stick to the old plan... y get that bike when my dream bike is like $1K difference and definately it will be much much comfortable to go on touring.... will get that in the future... was riding on SG road yesterday.. clocked ard 150km for the whole of yesterday.... sportsbike will be a bit tough for me on a long distance...

looks like the trip is on... feel like being dua.. 3 organisers ended up i'm alone going... min 20 to go.. now less than 10 and its still on... but its ok... bigger group may have its pro but i still prefer to go on a smaller group... at least i know i wont get blown by the superbikes.... and i know.. my idol is riding with me... kekeke...

december 3 trips!!! wohoo!!! pangkor on early december... melaka on the next weekend and CAMERON on Xmas!!! so excited... Strawberry icecream and the corners... must make sure i can conquer the cameron corners before i challenge the fraser hills... been thinking of that recently... one of the most challenging "corner" place in malaysia... muahahaha!!!

sabishii...

yon eiga wo mite... ii eiga... demo.. sabishi...

downtown east

been so long since i last step into downtown east... memories starts refreshing... califonia hot dog... the "kopitiam" style laksa stall.... i miss her so much...

surprise from mom

woke up late today... brush n turn on my PC... mom came in n told me... brother going japan on 29th Dec... going to visit his japanese "girlfriend" oh gosh.... i missed it again... better not go be the "light bulb" hehe... hope everything goes fine... we all like this girl... so cute and friendly...

again... went to see bikes yesterday afterwork... tempted to get... a bike i will last think of...but the price is @_@

26K+ on the road... but surprised that they are willing to take my bike at such a high price considering the mileage without me bargaining for it.... kaka told me to get... she knows i super duper gian to upgrade... but... when i got the $$$ first... went to LC.. met juvin the 2nd time... she got her S4 for a few weeks... and i was sharing my worlds of touring on my S4 with her... while sharing.. i reflect to myself... y the urge to upgrade while i'm still enjoying my current ride... let my dream bikeys' dream for the owner for a little while longer ba....

went 2nd link pump... tried one of the rider's FJR.. woo... think i can... anyway.. he's gonna cut seat.. maybe i try again after he did tat... tried cbr1000rr... she's thinking of downgrading... "TAT WAS FAST!!!" i cant imagine the amount of $$$ she gonna lose for making that decision... asking me whether i'm interested to get it or not... nope.. i rejected.. i cant pillion on that bike.. no way i'm gonna get a bike and i cant pillion my mom n brothers... anyway... she's planning to get the same bike as her bf... kinda shock... 3 getting the same bikey in less than a mth... woah!!!

Follow your heart!! Believe in yourself, do what you feel best

we are here to learn lessons and the world is out teacher, your life is a perfect reflection of your beliefs, The moment you get too attached to things, people, money... you screw it up. When you fight life, life wins. I admit i almost screwed things up... cos i care too much... wanted all the best for my friend and sort of neglect her feelings... begin to let go and let her soar... happy for her.. she did it... All by herself... Till now.. i'm still unable to let go of $$$... paying installment is the last thing i want... imagine scrimping and saving every month just becos i have to pay for my bike... stressed... y not save without forcing yourself to miss your fav. movies... eat your fav. food... go on holidays with your best friends... u will still get your fav. bike... just that u get it later... I'm still injecting these thoughts in my brain... i dun need a bigger bike S4 is good enuff... i will only get a bigger bikey when i can afford it and i will not be stressed fearing that i might not be able to pay for the bike loan... go for rides... This is hard but i have to start somewhere... went to bike shops and view bike since i got my class 2 licence... HAYABUSA, STX, FAZER, R1, R6, GS DAKAR, CBR1000, ELECTRA GLIDE, NIGHTROD... people has been injecting temptations into my brain... asking me when i'm upgrading... keep selling the bikes to me... I WANTED TO!!! but i just cant force myself to slave for my rides for the next 3~7 years... i want to go for trips... i want to go track... i want to see the world... i dun want to restrict my dreams now becos i am STILL paying for the bike and not able to go becos i'm low in $$$$$
Earn now, pay later is always better than buy now, pay later... at least u dun feel that stress...

How do you love people? Just accept them, dont change them.. that's the true them... our mission in life is to change ourselves for the better... not change others to make yourselves feel better.... i love people who open up their thinkings to me... they are confident and do not care of what others think of them... i like those people... I admit i'm not really such a person for the start... i lack of self confidence... i used to feel so sad when people say i'm plump and so short, always see me wearing black tshirt n jeans... but i will always comfort myself by telling myself... how many people can do 50 situps in a minute? How many people can do flex-arm hang for 55secs? How many people can swim 45laps? Why make yourself so unhappy? slowly i began to share "myself" with others and notice that they dun really care how plump i am... they care who i am. From then i know "size doesnt matter"... i'm just taking things too hard...

every event has the potential to transform us, and disasters have the greatest potential to change our thinking... Act as if every event has a purpose and your life will have a purpose. I've change my life n thinking since i started hanging out with my bike friends... all from different backgrounds, different ages, different thinkings... It was like "WOW!!! how come i didnt think of it?? Can liddat meh?" etc... been keeping myself to this small area for like 24 years and a sudden exposure really changed me a lot... i'm used to be a 3 layered photoshop file.... now maybe say 10 layered and i'm still adding more in me. I believe i can handle bad circumstances better than before... because i learn from previous experiences..

Every person who walks into your life is a teacher... even if they drive you nuts, they teach you because they show you where your limits are. How true... I have a lot of teacher, my boss is one of them... always drives me crazy... OT, DEADLINES (not datelines) change our designs.. sometimes make it look so shitty (i admit sometimes it does looks better)... ppl will say "your boss is a creep, so sneaky, take u all for granted, make u all no life, Y u still work for him?" I told others "no choice lah, work place nearer and go work late he also wont gilibala much lah" in actual fact... i love the company... learn a lot from the bosses and the clients they brought to me... they drives me NUTS even more... but that is where i learn and test my limits... i dun have good temper... but i managed to control it whenever i can... i can still remember when i got so damn pissed and stress... i will go to the toilet and cry and punch the ceramic tiles.... a quick and painful way of destress n let out... no more now... i learn to accept it and take it as a lesson...although i still feel stress at times but at least i know i will learn something at the end of the day... When you get better, the game gets bigger...

soft toys... they have feelings too...

soft toys are not only soft toys... they have their own characters too... they have feelings too... they are very good companions and secrets keeper too... i have 20~30~40~50 of them... but only a few tat i really loved...i love BBB.. though not mine... but really love its mischevious... like her mum... wahaha!! loved teh peng n cha cha... they are the quiet ones... patiently listen to me... my complains... my feelings... happy for me when i'm happy... sad for me when i'm pissed... really loved them...

guess wat... my brother is chit chatting with his japanese "girlfriend" over msn... chiobu sia... happy for him... hope everything goes well n here's my sister-in-law... wahahaha!!! YURIKA chan... another soft toy lover... hehee...
=]

work... never ending...

gosh... finally got some form working when boss is not in until 555pm... he came back.... still ok.. promised client tat i will send her the changes before i go off... work till ard 7pm.. he came in n told me to do another project... need to email to client asap... ya right.... i stayed not cos of that extra project... i stayed to keep my word... ignored him and carry on with my stuffs... abt 30mins later he came in n see wat i'm doing... feeling so damn pissed then... wat the hell.. u think i surf surf or wat? its already off office hours... doing OT for u is a bonus... dun take me for granted.... finally managed to finish wat i'm supposed to do... email the client n cc him a copy... then work on his extra project... took me ard 30~45mins... quickly upload n email him before i rush off... ya can sense he is not tooo happy... but still... 11hrs sitting in front of the pc.. i'm tired... my eyes are tired.. so damn freaking hungry and cold and my neck is killing me... have to use bbb and a pillow to support my poor neck.... feel like chopping it off... aargghhh!!! ANGRY!!!! friday again... hope its gonna be a nice weekend... *pray hard*

3 yrs + 19 day....

cant sleep last nite... finally couldnt hold it back anymore... the lonely feeling came and tears started flowing.... been 3yrs n 19days since girlgirl left me.... still couldnt forget her... pictures n screens kept swapping past my mind... how we played... how she died... how i wish i can see her again....

do remember to pick me up when my day has come ya...
love ya...

my NSR!!!

Finally saw my ex SP on the road... 3 yrs.. really missed that baby.... glad that the owner treated the bike with care.... BUT!!! y the box!!! lol...

what am I??

waited for 1hr+ at LC fodcourt... no one reach... left at 845pm to fetch my brother home... tired and got this phonecall from C. knocking off soon and asking me out... told her dun think so... she later command me... cannot... must go out with her n maybe jio D. need my help help her post picture... i rejected n ask her to try go to the website n do herself cos i wont want to access to her personal web photos and forum access.... she say dunno... say will email the files to me n i do for her... diaooon... totally ignore wat i said.... then told her i need to d/c hungry n tired... she then allow me to d/c n say will call me later to go out... really go mad... i'm not yr maid!! nOt yr servant!!

time flies....

times flies... been 5 yrs since my fav. Jpn group SPEED went on their own ways persuing their dreams.... brother playing their concert vcd.... and suddenly asked me y didnt i go learn dancing... its my dream n hobby when young... how i wish i'm back in my sec school days.... hide in my room playing the video tape... watching the mtvs and dance like my idol... hehee... i went crazy... wahahaha!!!

BEYOND CONCERT!!!!

THEY ARE SO COOL!!!!
I loved Wing's style... totally when mad when he played the drums.... I love Paul when he played the guitar... looks as if he is in his own world... Loved KK's style when he played the bass guitar.... 98% filled up with Beyond fans!!! the whole stadium went mad when they sang...
Missed Jiaju... hope he sees the last beyond concert...
Beyond forever!!!

12/10/2005

i felt bad... couldnt help much...
bad razzy... *abish*

sad..... blueblue monday

pissed with work today... totally blue monday when i received that few emails... damn.. can get much done this week... already rushing like mad n trying to find the minor mistakes in the design... hopefully wont kena sacarstic remarks again... n there he is thingkin its so easy to do those work... keep coming in n see how's the progress and keep asking me to call client... do this do that... do this tml.. do that the next day... go to this client's place on thursday... n go to tat client's place on friday... looks like i dun have to plan my schedule anymore... its never fulfilled... PISSED.... was concentrating on my work.. think hard how to do... suddenly just come in scare me... i swear my heart stopped for tat 2 seconds... today so free and come kajiao n ask us to generate more $$$ for him... ya right... u know how to comment... u know wats best... then U CHANGE IT YRSELF!!!! wat dunno how to use photoshop.. got so much time.. didnt even put an effort to go try... u seen me working on it for 5 years... 5 YEARS!!!! for goodness sake.... dun tell me u didnt even know... or u r just plain lazy n expect us to slave for u.... idiotic me already slaving like hell..no life for the past few years... i dun wish to continue that every day.. every week.... dun think that that amount of $$$ can buy 24/5.... i might as well go work as cashier at cold storage... for that same amount of $$$ and that amount of $$$ and with that number of working hours... at least i dun lose my freedom....

got totally trashed today when tat comment is made... my heart sunk... i know its the style.. i know it.. just that i still takes words too hard.... *abish razzy* dun play again

haiz.... pissed meeting

wat to do... explain design.. wats there to explain actually....
wat is there is wat YR BOSS WANTS!!! yes.. i want to input my creativity... but if yr boss likes otherwise... take it... so now yr boss didnt join in the meeting.. u started to input yr own ideas... yr boss wants white... u want black.. so how should i listen to??

PISSED

stressed week

lotz to do.. sometimes really dunno how to schedule my work... so damn pissed when my schedules got mixed up by boss agin n again n again... supposed to go client's place today n tomorrow... boss changed it... then new projects came in n need immediate attention.. posponed to thursday n friday... haiz... another client requested for a meeting tml... boss reschedule the date to friday instead... NEVER.. he never take our project on hand into considerations... only those new projects... need to show something then client will pay something... that's his priority... not say its wrong.. but we got projects hanging in our shelves collecting dust for a month n more becos of all these... how to find time to do? Work is never ending.. i agree with this... so i just do whatever i can for the day... at least i finish whatever planned for the day... dun dare to schedule for the week cos i'm sure its useless.... someone there sure mess it up again... so y bother... just hope tat clients start calling him up instead of me... so that boss knows our situation now....

been drinking a lot for the past few days before sleep... tired n sleepy.. but cant sleep... have to make myself drunk in order to get a good night's rest... almost half the bottle of vodka gone.. SKIOK!!! tsktsktsk... luckily at least now i dun have to sit up and do something funny when a sleep.... wahahaha...

miss BBB... nothing to see me to bed... no BBB to hug... *sob*

Personality test....

http://www.myhome.com.sg/homeimprovement/interior_design/personality_finder/personality_finder.shtml

You are an Artisan-Adventurer

Famous Artisan-Adventurers: Elvis Presley, Madonna, Ernest Hemingway, Clint Eastwood, Winston Churchill,

You are spontaneous, and a genius at thinking on your feet. You are daring and confident of yourself; and happiest when expressing yourself in some form of artistic or athletic endeavour. You are extremely “in touch” with the physical world.

Recommended style for the Artisan-Adventurer: Zen
The design style which best expresses your personality is the Zen look. As you do not like clutter, you prefer a style that is streamlined, sleek and stylish. You are clearly sophisticated and fashionable, and enjoy this very “in” style.

Mood analysis

You feel worn out, physically and mentally. Recently the going has been tough and it looks as if there is still a considerable way for you to go before you can see the light at the end of the tunnel. If only you could put a protecting wall around yourself and cut yourself off from the rest of the world - be it even for only a little while - how wonderful it would be, but you can't - so you need to bear with it. Just when everything will seem at its lowest ebb you will find that there is a turnabout and your problems will seem to find a way of resolving themselves.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

Your confidence has been shattered. There are so many things that you would like to do with your life, so many dreams to be fulfilled - and you know that your hopes and dreams are not just figments of your imagination, they are real and you are looking for reassurance from someone. Basically your fears are such that you may be prevented in attaining your hopes and dreams. Even now you would like to broaden your fields of endeavor but in order to develop your 'inner- self' you need peace and solace. You are distressed by the fear that you may be prevented from attaining your goals. What you really need at this particular moment in time is quiet reassurance from someone close to you to restore your confidence.

Unacceptable restrictions have been forced upon you and this is resulting in severe frustration and stress. You are looking for independence and consequently you shy away from any restriction and avoid obligations of anything which might prove hampering. You are being subjected to considerable pressure and want to escape from it so that you can obtain what you need, but unfortunately at this particular moment in time you lack the necessary strength of purpose to succeed in this.

The tensions and stresses that you are experiencing at this time are, you feel, beyond your capabilities or your reserves of strength to cope with. You feel inadequate and in a constant state of anxiety. You are attempting to escape from this situation into a secure environment in which you may be permitted to relax and recover, free from outside interference.

KL + sepang trip

wooo!! first time going trips with my little brother. met the team at GP esso at 4am...

move off at ard 445pm... marker for the first stop... tsktsktsk... a bit late but managed to catch up... first part shoot 160~180km/h.. shiok!!! loved the cold air and the dark roads with the reflectives... reach pagoh.. top up and continued our journey... almost daybreak...woo!! nice scenary.. saw the sun rise on my bike... followed by some nice fogs... cool!!! rode slow and feel the fogs ... macham i'm riding through the clouds...SHIOK!!! next stop seremban then destina for last fuel topup. entered KL ...
woah!! the roads are so damn jam... got to squeeze but managed to catch up with the group. totally shag when we reach Corona Inn at ard 930am.. we were early by 1hr. managed to secure 2 rooms... so guys one room, girls one room... put our stuffs and off we went to Sungei wang for breakfast n lunch... went window shopping after that... was too tired walking sideways things doesnt register in my brain... lucky got mehmeh with me... hehe... *muacks* went to starbucks for kopi..

dozed off while waiting for the group to join us... finally 1+pm.. rooms should be ready... slowly stroll back to the hotel, got our keys, have a nice hot bath and zzzZZZZ.... woke up at 630pm... Oops.. late!!! quickly wash n change n went to the lobby to meet the group...

luckily we are not the latest... jos friend (helped us book the hotel room n bought the sepang tix) joined us for dinner... very paisei have to make him pay for our dinner.... he later brought us to the night pasamalam to shop shop... nice place to shop.. but almost samething everywhere... bought a cap for the next day and we walked back to our hotel.. showered n small gathering in our rooms....untill 12+am... knock out time... woke up at 8am.. went for breakfast... nice tim sum.. later tabao back to our rooms for 2nd rounds... gather at our bikes at 10am... warm up the bikes, get ready n move off to SEPANG!!!

reach at ard 1pm...
125cc race started... then 250cc then motogp race!!! so excited!! really an eye opener!! first time see the real race...

weather was so hot... most of us turned red after... went to seremban for first topup then ayerkeroh for dinner... A&W!! YUMMY!! had bad headache... last 200+km is a torture... breaking coldsweat... couldnt breathe like normal... had my visor up most of the time to cool myself down... finally reached GP... had some rest and went back home... reach at ard 1230am... had shower n KO!

riding time!!!

been so long since i last ride with my pals.... so happy to have them riding with me... although its just a few mins ride together... but its feels real great... hope to have more!!! 1st oct coming soon.. more ridings n more outings... yeah!!!

Haytai + 3NCR ride

Day 1
meet up at 6am..
shoot off at 615am
breakfast stop at ayer keroh (217.7km)


top up at sungai besi...
lunch stop + top up @ Tapah...
Top up at gurun
rode hornet 9 for 80+km on bumpy road to last top up station.
pass malaysia custom... went duty free shop.. bought blackcurrent vodka at RM 57!!!
went to thailand custom... rode from sadao to Haytai ard 45mins...
unpack.. changed n went out to buy toiletries... back to hotel.. all the rest showered n ready to go dinner...
went for dinner at hill top.. TOM YUM soup!! green curry, fried pork leg!!!, Thai Fried Fish!! YUMMY!!!
back to hotel area... went jalan jalan... n head back to room n had a long nice shower... went to massage but closed... call them to our rooms instead... shiok!!! drink 2 glasses of vodka n zzzzZZZZZ....


Day 2
Breakfast!!! nice fish porridge *slurp*
Beach ride... pillion kaka around... scary traffic... stop for photo taking...

change to softail heritage.. rode for ard 10km to the nearby beach... nice clear waters... no swimwear!!! argghH!!! later rode to other side of the beach for lunch... YUMMY!!!
back to hotel... the rest went for earthquake icecream... i dozed off in my room...
woke up.. watch TV n vodka with kaka again... in the afternoon... wahahaa!! relax sia... shareen came to our room... let her try some... smeels good... but less than a glass she became lobster... lol... we went to makan dinner.. porridge again... hehe... shareen still in "drunk" mode so went back for some rest... we later went to night market shopshop... bought a pair of jeans for my brother... n a tshirt for myself... nothing much to buy... went back to hotel to put our stuffs n went to West Side Salon... nice place... had 2 Black Russians (coffee + whisky) nice live band!!! kaka, kwan n wife, kester, alan dance on their chair ... wahahaha!! all the nice 60's songs... went back to hotel... had another glass of vodka with kaka... n knock out... =P

Day 3
went for quick breakfast n back to do last min packing...
met at bike @ 10am... headed to the customs... ard 45mins too... went to top up n head to PENANG!!! nice 200km ride... stop by the bridge... took a group picture...


saw lotsa bikes going pass... holland to our hotel... wooo!!! 5 star Hotel Equatorial... check in... nice shower... n zzzZZZ again... later went for sunset ride... pillion kaka again... hehe... kester brought us to play corner!!! went to makan icekachang!!! woo!!! nice n not so sweet... took a lot of pics... all suan the corner queen didnt rode her bike.... later move off... for more corners... kaka was like AHHH!!!! "dui xim kua" only word i can use to describe her feelings... corner for ard 1hrs... hehe... nice n shiok... didnt know i can corner better with pillion behind... weight distribution good... but... wah!!! almost share seat... "PAIN" sia!!! lol... =P
went for dinner at this open place... a lot of nice food.... *drool* later went topup n back to hotel.... shareen's birthday... me n kaka bought a black forest cake... wanted to surprise her... but argghh!!! when we lift door open.. she n her bf walked out... damn they saw it... went to our room... wait for the rest of the gang to come with the chairs and cups n PARTY!!! got 28 candles all over the cake n make shareen blow all out... later kaka's "abang" and 4 other KL bikers came to visit her... all of us started to tease kaka... but kaka not the shy shy type so.. no fun.. *bleah* "abang" stayed over in our room... n chatted with kaka till 6+am!!! OMG...


Day 4
woke up and wash up n quickly went for breakfast... 30mins left... kaka not going... cos less 1 coupon... abang couldnt join in... when i came back.. they got ready n went for some rides on abang's BMW RS... she passed me her keys let me ride her bike if i want... wohoo!!! gian gian... all gather at the lobby while kaka n abang left for their rides... alan caught them holding hands on camera..woohoo!!! went to the carpark.. super duper gian... shareen psycho me again... cant resist the temptation... i start the bike n off we went to the stadium... 3ncr gathering point. too a few pics there... me, shareen, eric not going for the ride with other groups... wanted to explore n go play some corners... so off we go while the 2Ks went back to hotel... shiok sia!!! POWER!!! didnt wack much but the bike is so powerful but problem.. i cant go slow on that bike... can feel my back aching when going on slow speed... now i understand y sports bike must go fast.... lol.... go round penang... didnt cover the whole penang but a nice ride with the superbike... start drizzling n its getting heavier n heavier... we decided to head back to hotel... went for a quick shower n went lunchie with kelly, kester, shareen n eric... later took pics n went shopping for gloves... very tempted to get gloves... saw one..RM 80... outside selling ard SGD$90.. later collected some harley brochures n went back to our rooms... still thinking of the gloves.. went down n try out but got the other instead.. RM 140 but with better "knuckles" and not as hot when worn... got it n went back to sleep... woke up at ard 530pm... kaka just came backwash up n we went to the matahari ballroom for the 3ncr dinner 8 courses but took so damn long time to finish... got so pissed with some of the older riders... ppl say queue up.. still squeeze... haiz.... the whole dinner ended at ard 1130pm or 12am... we left at 11am after my no 58 mini bike was drawn off by some other ppl... sad... packed up and we finish our last bit of vodka... watch the 250cc race till fell asleep... didnt mange to catch the motogp race...arrghhh!!!!


Day 5
woke up at 8am... went for shower n we went fr breakfast... rain again!!! argghh!!! not good... but rain or shine we still move off... saw my neighbour riding my dream bikey STX13!!! kekee... the bridge is jam n going slow... but the drizzle kinda cool the weather down... not sweating... feel fresh instead... later top up at tapah n continue our journey back.... i shoot off first with the 2 superbikes... rain gettin heavier n heavier... started to feel my polo tee wet... n realised my passport is in my jacket... stop under the bridge... put my passport in my tank bag on my red lights and carry on wacking... vision is blur... but still managed to catch up with them... one part the condition is real bad... big cross wind drifted me from the right lane to the left... change back to right lane... a big truck on the left lane... went over the big pool of water and i got splashed big time... wat an experience fun but dangerous... later lunch + topup at sungei buloh RnR waiting for the rain to stop... but too bad... not good... decided not to wait... n off we went... felt so cold tat i need to pee again.. damn!!! 200+km more to go... passed by a few RnRs inbetween but no one to go with me... luckily weather getting better.. can see the sun sometimes... going on bumpy road is torture for me... wahahaa!!! finally reached the petrol kiosk... top up n rush to the toilet at pagoh... went tian lai for a nice dinner.... and Home sweet home....
total clocked 1982.2km...

~The End~


pics coming soon....

lazy?? hack care?? or take me for granted??

sunday... he passed me the insurance renewal letter... ask me to check for him if the information is correct... later told me to go pay on his behalf... i told him he can go request for cashiers order/cheque at the bank... he told me he dunno how to do... crap... he just did tat less than 6 mths ago... now giving me this kind of stupid excuse... anyway... i told him i'm meeting a friend working in NTUC income... who did insurance for me for my bikey... go ransack his drawers and the car to get the documents... next day... my friend told me the price... woo.. $200+ cheaper than tat stupid insurance company... good... so got everything settled but need a signature from my dad cos he is the owner... sms my dad to let him know... later he called n ask me to sign on his behalf... PLS LOR!!! u r the owner.. i sign for wat?? PISSED...

always make me angry.... who's the parent n who is the kid? adult liao still behaving so irresponsible... always push the responsibility to others... always me... y not the SONS u have? always take me for granted...

my fault??

so is my fault lah....
email u the malaysia n singapore together lah..
u ask me to email u yr name card mah... u got so many versions.. who knows which one u want to print... email u r the one who sent to the printer... u didnt check before sending??? think i wat?? the worm in yr stomach ah.. know want u think ah??

dun expect wat u expect n want me to give u wat u want... PISSED

pissed meeting...

last 2 meetings...
A says: i want the background black... i want blue curtains... i want a modern + heritage feel... i want this i want tat...

yesterday's meeting...
B (A's boss): i dun like the blackground black... too heavy... i dun want curtains... i want more modern look... dun want the oldies feel...



PISSED...

sherider dinner gathering

SRC dinner gathering at tian lai!!! rained halfway.. got drench a bit... crap... a little jam at the custom... crap... late.. reach at ard 620pm...
kelly, joelin, karen, jane, shareen, eric, victor + gf n me went...managed to not eat too much.... scared later riding pants cannot wear... wahahaha!!
kelly, victor + gf started eating liao... wahahaha!!! we ordered our food... waited for so long... nice dinner !!! black pepper crabs!! 8SLURP*
left at 9+pm... karen pyscho me..want to ride her GS or not... a bit tempted... but scared not tall enuff... but.. taddaaa!!! i can i can!! but really tiptoe bigtime... right side of my thigh almost cramp.... rode her bike to GP esso.. cool!!! so silent n so comfy... hehe.. but too bad top speed lower than my S4.. so no point upgrade to her bike... feedback... SHIOK!!... next...???

=P

razzy with a screw loose

izzit me?? i cant seem to relay my ideas/things i want to say properly verbally..crap me... think i pissed my friends and myself sometimes... *ahbish*
stone today... gonna wat for the food to digest and head to my bed by 10pm... gonna get some sleep and prepare for tml... *pray hard* everything goes smoothly... no last min work OK??? got kinda pissed when he started that thing... kidang again... like a naughty child keep pestering mummy to buy things in a annoying manner... feel like (*^^&*(^&. PISSED!!! cannot behave properly...

mixed feelings in me again.... went to my friend's baby's birthday last sat... her mum n other aunties keep asking me when is my turn to get married... aAHHH!!!! i dun want to get married for the sake of marrying... asked my mum how n why she chose dad... got a not very convinced answer... its liddat in the oldern days... they dun marry becos they love each other... but to marry for the sake of marrying... kaooozz...

"plum blossom" havent knock on my doors ba.... still in "play" mode... how to settle down?? teach me...

wat else can go wrong in a designer's world??

damn pissed... n i really meant it.... controlling my works... gave A the design... he likes it... n showed to B.. the "design and color idiot" she dun like it... ask for more drafts to make the money paid more worth while... ok.. fine.. 3 more drafts for her... A dun like it... discussed with B... finally concluded... get another webby and ask me to copy... sh*t

pekchek!!!

woah woah woah!!! tat little $$$ for all my time... please wake yr mind up!!!
want me to be like u?? no life?? and start acting weird... now going meeting with him kinda embarassing for me..... macham "kidang" keep stamping feet out of the sudden and keep doing funny gestures.... got so PISSED when he asked me tat question.. "yesterday u and stef going lesson ah??" i was like!!! HELLO!!!! we left at 730pm!!!! our knock off time is 6PM for goodness sake!!! u expect us to camp in office again??? this week already camp 2 days!!! we work like 20hrs a day!! sitting in front of the monitor without resting our eyes... headaches and so stone... dun appreciate nvm.. but please dun be so sacastic OK and expect us to slave n slog for U!!!! please lor!!! i still want my life lor... i still want to rest n go kopi with my friends lor!!!

yeah.. us stay late also.. watching TV, play games and spy on us... want to see wat time we work till right? *ahbish*
where's the things i want?? chasing for some text for 8mth!!! still nothing from u... *ahbish*
pls lor.. this is yr company not mine... if u are still thinking n doing n expecting this way... sayonara *ahbish*

listen to all those sutras for wat??!! listen n didnt applied from the teachings... wat u gain from yr teachings?? slave yr employees even more?? *ahbish*

Moi birthday!!!

Thanks mum... love ya... wanted mum to know my friends so that she knows who i mixed with... ended up she helped me with the carrying n cooking...

reach the chalet 1+am tired... we had our shower after carrying all the stuffs in... me n mum cant sleep... talk n talk n talk till i slept... dunno wat i dreamt of... suddenly let out a laugh... next day kena tease by my mom...

went white sands for breakfast.. bought fruits and went back to chalet... a lot of preparation... brohter drove me to collect the stuffs... back at ard 3pm.. started the frying and went to carry the chairs and tables with a friend... thanks xuanxuan!!! *muacks* bbq starts... getting more n more excited when i see my friends coming in... had fun!!! a lot of my friends came, glad that my friends mixed well. got lotsa presents!!! THXTHX!!



stayed till 4+am... fun ended.. went for shower... my sec school friends cant sleep... went to chat with them a little and went to bed... wanted to see sunrise... still didnt managed to wake up in time.... agghhh!! start packing and all ready to go home.... reach home at atf 1230pm.... tired... happily open my birthday cards and presents one by one with bingbongbiang... hehee... place nicely n took a pictures... see bingbongbian so "xinfu" kekeke..

sink in bed with bingbongbiang, hairy n heehor after cleaning up... hehehe... feels so loved... yeah!!!

time flies

wow!!! for a moment i thought its sunday today... drop back to bed n sleep until 915am... so damn tired... today is my best friend's birthday... tml will be mind... siak siak... so happy... long time never had a big gathering... hope they can mix well on sat... hehee....

back to work.. sian...

tuesday

as usual, checking my mail first when i came in... disappointment expected... didnt see his email... talk big again... diaon diaon diaonnnn say will help me look for picture so that i can work faster... in the end... haiz...

a very sian n busy day it will be... bless me with faster hands n brain so that i can get over with it soon...

happy birthday....

happy birthday to u....happy birthday to u....happy birthday to Linda....happy birthday to u....

happy birthday my dear friend.... time flies... still remembered last year's today we went blading together at Pasir ris park... was so hoping we could blade together again... *hugz* miss u...

..........

ok.. one down for 2 days and a few more to go... stress... do which one first??
feel like munching... *no no no*
back to work....

blackblackblueblue monday....

woke up aching... my back n neck... not as flexible as before.... 4+hrs lying on my tummy watching tv can break my back... lol... neck got stretched bigtime till now a bit pain... no mood to work... sian.. got a stupid email... redo again... *bish bash bang* damn....

Black n Blue morning... SLEEPY!!!...

sunday part 2

reach hm at 7+pm... grab a bread n ate some leftovers for dinner... one brother hogging the pc n the other hogging the tv... watching anime... wah... can tahan ah!!! 52 episode in a day... *faint* i joined in... just finished watching... took me almost 5 hrs to finish 12 episode... so much romance n love in the anime... awwww... tamahome so stylo n handsome an loves miaka so much... lovely dovey.. dun think can find one in the real world... lol..

time to sleep.. a bad monday coming up... *pray hard no more changes*

sunday....

woke up with slight fever... must be the rain yesterday... so tired and nua... must grab a cup of coffee... in office now... better start work after i finish this...

thought i was late... kekee.. so paisei when ppl come in to KFC and kept staring at me... "this girl ah... hog so many tables." *bleah* thought i kena fly aeroplane... then garnet reached... shy shy... chilli, puzzle, fragile n jingle came next... hehe... garnet big time suaning jingle... so cute...

had a great night yesterday... been so long since i last chatted and ride with the girls... cool!!! first time chatted with teacher garnet, first time chatted so much with melissa and bernice, first time see Lass, first time took picture with Jingle and wendy... *shy*

rebecca broke the news... everyone kinda turn sad... i told rebecca... when our time is up its up... dun be sad...
*to my friends... if in any case i go before u... dun be sad... let me leave with yr love n smiles in my heart*
(^-^)

at seletar dam... the song "tong hua" saddens me... miss my girlgirl again... miss wee too... her birthday next tuesday... how i wish i can sing her a birthday song... how i wish she is with us yesterday... held my tears back...

wo yao bian cheng tong hua li ni ai de tian shi
zhang kai shuang shou bian cheng chi bang shou hu ni
ni yao xiang xin
xiang xin wo men hui xiang tong hua gu shi li
xin fu he kuai le shi jie ju....

Training part 1

woke up late today.... but luckily i reach GP esso on time... erm.. 1 min late.. =P
Marshall training lesson 1... how to mark?

wow.. a lot to learn... speed from 70~100km/h... we took the trunk road from Gelang Patah to Petananas (dunno spelling right or wrong) rain!!!! arghhh!!! didnt bring my raincoat... crap... anyway... we proceeded as the rain wasnt tat heavy.... went to kluang... nice place... nice swervy and nice corners with some humps here n there... saw doggies and cows along the roadside... saw dead monitor lizard headless on one of the trunk road... nice scenary and cool air... fun... until one part... raining damn heavily... got totally drenched... dare not go any faster... rain drops hiting me real hard... ouch.... luckily it was like 15 ~20mins... finally went pass the haevy clouds... can see sunshine again... yeah... *tats not the end* can see the clouds is following us.. lol... anyway... managed to "dry" myself during the ride... happy happy... cough bigtime and for the first time... i sneeze in my full face.... lol.. cant control.... lucky just a dry sneeze.. no sticky sticky "substance" wahahaa!!! thought of the joke on wat will u do when u ride with a flu... hahaa... *pengz* after lunch... we decided to end the training session due to weather... me n leader came back SG vis first link... and the other 2 went KL... raining again.... got drench again... sian... so looking forward to my next ride... my best destressing method... yeah!!!

just had a hot shower... pray hard later no rain.... got female rider outing!!! yeah!!! roundings!! yeah!!! DUN RAIN!!!! THX =]

WAT A BUSY WEEK...

haiz... TGIF spent in OFFICE.. oh crap... wat else can go wrong...
changes n changes.... another draft with 5 pages need to be up by sunday... yes.. SUNDAY... wada... *sob*

pray hard everything will go smoothly... i dun wish to change... sian n super duper busy... a few more project queuing for my time... i cant schedule for it... GOD THANKS for giving me someone to share my load... thanks for giving someone to cheer me up when i'm pissed... thanks thanks thanks....

ok.. back to work....

girlgirl

wo ni de shou
xiang er yu qing sheng shou bao zhong
ran yan jing jiu shuan shi le
bu zhi shi tong ye you gan dong

mei yi chi hui shou
dou wei le zai wo shou
dan zhe yi chi
shi wei le fang shou....






wo bu xiang fang shou....
girlgirl dai wo zou....

*sob*

sat...

work up early in the morning... went to baibai... 7th mth... got to know from ah yi tat grandma i suspected of having blood cancer.... it was a very big shock... ah ma doesnt want to get treated... just let her go once her time is up... doc said tat she can stay with us at most 2~3 yrs... *sob*

went back home n saw dad at home... with the horse racing channel on... oh no... all horse races are cancelled due to the haze... dad has been wanting to go 2nd link... so we decided to go in... no jams.. yeah... expected dad to go abt 100km/h.. instead he go 60~70km/h.. pengz... throughout the whole trip... he talk n talk n talk non stop.... was quite annoyed... later mum told me is becos he is happy... so let him be... lol...

got dinner at Shangrila Katong ballroom... reach early... bosss late again... haiz... guys always let girls wait... luckly lesley is with me.... we went in first... dinner is great... and the programmes installed were so fun... i enjoyed it... drank 4 glasses of red wine n 2 glasses of champagne... nice nice... later mum n dad came to fetch me... so sorry tat i have to let them wait for like 1 hr... thanks mum n dad.... the dinner ended at 12+am.... first time had a 4+hr dinner.... pengz... was kinda tipsy... couldnt join sam at the dam... sorry...

is it my fault?

really cant stay home when he is ard... my fault?? give u $$$$ u think its little... i dun earn $10k per month... how to give u $3~$4k per mth... teach me please... already saving hard to take over yr load for the past few years... me n brother paying for all the household expenses while u work for yr hobbies... no enuff we give u and u still want to complain... crap... any fathers out there teach n keep asking their kids to invest in their gambling hobbies?? i have one here... SHIT!!!

gonna go out again... cant stay at home... any min he will start talking n introducing the horses to me and start asking me to invest.... argghh!!! where can i go? *sob*

Sianzation...

lonely... i'm so lonely....
working alone there... feeling so bored!!!!!

*bang walls*

1268.6km

Cameron trip total clocked 1268.6km
so happy!!! managed to "bua boots"
so fun with cornerings =]
must plan to go again.. hehee.. strawberry icecreams!!! still my fav.

a slow n boring national day i had... went to meet up with my insurance agent... again i bought 2 more plans... now total $400+ per month for my personal coverage... *puke blood* wat to do... kia si me... better to slog n slave to prevent asking help from others when something happens.... haiz...
supposed to meet my sec school friends at yishun to see the NDP celebrations... but they ended up going somewhere nearby to have dinner.... diaooon... meeting cancelled

Met up with A later in the evening... got my first birthday present.. THANKS THANKS *muacks* got 3 birthday gifts from guys this year... my brother n 2 friends... kekeke... first time... lol... later went to mr bean for kopi session... left early... next day gonna work... sian.... here i am... working... work work work... hope today will be a fruitful day... at least please no more changes... *pray*

Happy birthday!!!

happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to me..
happy birthday to razzy..
happy birthday to me..

bought presents for myself!!!
strawberry icecream!!!
strawberry jam!!!
strawberry juice!!!
dride strawberries!!!

muahahaha!!!

........

been having difficulty breathing for a few nights over the past 2 weeks.... windpipe area blocking?? sometimes woke up in shock trying to grasp for oxygen... oh great.. i'm dying... hopefully i can die in peace... never dared going to doctors to get myself checked... skally all funny illness come knocking on my doors... left foot hurts... rheumatism.. at my age.. haha.. my weather forecast... got wet just now when i'm on my way back from client's place... feeling so hot n cold now... sick razzy on the way... hopefully tomolo no rain.. pls!!!! got meeting in town area!!! hated meetings... but it did help pass my time fast... keke... all ready to go camerons... yeah!!!

haiz...

woke up in a daze... wat a grey thursday... so nice to laze on the bed... sleeping... huggging my pillow... got a meeting at 1045am... no choice... 930am have to wake up. wash up n change. raining very very heavily.. mum ask me to drive instead of riding... but no thanks... phobia driving in the rain is still there... even after 1 yr... slow ride to client's place... took me ard 25mins to reach.. quickly get change... lucky i was early... 5 ppl with 3 different ideas... dunno listen to whose... no point person to talk to... haiz.. extra work again... crap... meeting last for abt an hour... sian... now still in a stoney mode... how i wish i'm at home now on my nice little bed n sleep till the next morning... spend quite a lot for the past week... next week n next next week too... money no enuff...

itchy backside again... saw one of my dream bike posted in the forum... the fire relighted in me again... but... $$$$$ problem again...

oh god.. plzplzplz!! let me strike toto tml so that i can get hold of tat beauty...
*pray*

pathetic

oh well.. she's still happily going ard doing wat she wants... wat to do... sole propietor of that ****-******** ***** ** **** *** *** ***** *** **** *****. was thinking for the past few days after *** ask me to **** her and **** to her... now... i can happily dump all those advises away.... she's just now worth... not even enuff to **** ** ****. ****, ***, ********* ******... *** say her super duper **** *** on her *** ****... ** ***.. ****** **** **** * ******* *** ***.... * ***** **** *** ** *** ** ****** * *** ****... **** *** *** *** **** *****....
muahahahaha!!!!
*evil laughter*

chop carrot... who is chopping whose carrot??? u started all these just becos i posted tat amount??? so are you treating me like a carrot??

worse case i just dump and get myself a new ride... wats there to be mad of? *wake up razzy!!!*
I'm freed!!! YEAH!!!

tuesday....

a very nua day... saw budd.. bbb very happy.. keke... happy to see the mischevious look on bbb... work late... went to my ah yi's place to take some freebies... beers for dad and some tibits for mum... later drop by chong pang to drop cheque... took the long way back home... miss the neighbourhood... a lot of changes there... how i wish i can move back... just had my dinner... now waiting for the food to digest so that i can go to sleep.. haiz.... should bring bbb home... i miss bbb...

Time flies.... old razzy.....

chatted with my primary school friend over msn... time flies... she's celebrating her son's 1st birthday, her birthday and her housewarming next month... woo... time flies... suddenly feel so old... we chatted about our school days... we are neighbours, everyday i will go to her place to meet her and we go school together... after school we will go play swing for a while... push each other and we will see who goes higher... after tat we will go to the mama shop opposite block n buy us ice stick... the one paying 10cents will get the longer part... sometimes she comes to my place to do homework... my mum will tie our hair and we will use the same hair band... ppl kept mistake us for sisters... miss the good old days...

old liao... she's a mum now... n i'm still happy go lucky... still no feeling of settling down.. hahaa!! tats me... *bleah*

monday... blues no more!!

yeah.. boss not in almost the whole day today... happy happy.... can concentrate on my work... motivation... finally went "jogging" today... not really jog.. we walk almost the whole distance... later spotted the rambutan tree... sat's rain blown the branches down... me n les too a few back to office to eat... hmm not bad.. sweet sia!!! quickly grab a few plastic bags and run to the location and got ourselves 4 bags of rambutans!!! weewoowee!! shoik sia!!! didnt finish it of cos.. hehe... peel them nicely and kept them in freezer n fridge... hehe.. slurp... nice dessert tomolo...
went to kkfc to discuss abt the cameron trip... yeah!! so looking forward to it!!! have to pack on thursday latest... friday after work meet my friends for dinner and move off to GP after tat.

bbb miss mum... was ard 1130pm... decided to bring bbb to her mum... went to the airport... shhhh.... was late... 1150pm... waited for ard 15mins... the baggage cleared... no side of bbb's mum... we went home... sayang... took a slow ride home... speed a bit... bit average 85km/h... thinking again n again... argghhhh!!!
forget it... now worried abt ***.... she worried too much... her report not out yet... *pray hard she will be ok*

just had a hot shower... now having my supper... rojak!!! YUMMY!!!
another sleepless night its gonna be....

miss them...

miss my girl girl... almost 2 yrs and i cant forget her... how i wish she's with me now... miss her bites...

miss linda... her birthday coming soon... still remembered she celebrated her last birthday at downtown east... we went blading together... had laksa together... our last meal together...

*sob*

August!!!!

Ended my july in silence... cant sleep again...
slept at ard 5+am i think...
met sam at lab... bought her rain jacket... later went regina and chiap lee... hehe.. managed to bargain for a cheaper price for my next arai helmet if i get 2... wooo!!! anyone wants a MO??? hehe... so looking forward to it... dad originally wanted to go 2nd link for roundings... but jam leh... so abort the idea... went home and order pizzas... mum and youngest brother's birthday coming.. hehe... ate 2 slices and stopped... my other brother ate 4 and can still eat... diaoooon...
met kaka for 2nd round of dinner... drank 3 cups of teh haliah at KTM and ate 2 pcs of kueh tutu...
michelle asked what happened between me and ** ...
didnt tell the whole story... just briefly talk abt it... very tired telling the whole story again n again... haiz... anyway...

ITS AUGUST!!!! YEAH!!! so much wanted to bring her there to try the strawberry icecream... must find ways to bring it back... tsktsktsk... havent told my parents abt the trip... Oops... gonna kena spanking again... wakakaka... *joking*

Monday blues... all alone in this room... brought bbb out wherever i go for the past few days... hehe... can see its smiling face... but some views looking sad... awww... bbb miss mum again. *sayang* kekee... *razzy wild imagination again* how i wish i have a doggy....

wat a TGIF.....

went home for dinner... mum first attempt cooking curry mutton... YUMMY!!! love it... not cooked with coconut milk.. so can eat as much as i want.. wahahhaa!!!
went to LC foodcourt after that... was very early... the first to reach there... throat not feeling too good... bought a packet of barley drink n sat on he bike waiting for dawndawn... victor, kelly n eric, *******'s bf reached... i joined them at the table... feeling a bit awkward... izzit me or wat.... some how i dun feel like going LC after tat incident. everyone will start asking "when u getting yr class 2 bike??" and one by one will start tempting u with the bikes. I still havent made up my mind... *spank razzy backside* too much to choose too many to think of... still its the $$ issue... installment.. interest... i dun want to slave for my ride... i want to enjoy my rides... feel so stressed whenever i start calculating.... argghhH!!!

met jos for supper at changi village... cant convince me over the phone so she decided to meet me n give me a consultation... "what are friends for?" she asked... her answer "to be made used of"... i couldnt agree with tat answer. "A friend in need is a friend indeed" i started to lose confidence in "friends". been low profile ever since tat incident... i rather stick with those i feel comfortable with. I know jos wanted us to patch up. but sorry, i cant convince myself to do it. there's a first time there's bound to be second. I dun want to be made used of and have no wish to be branded making use of ppl. Yes i'm stubborn, i'm obstinate. "Friend" to me is a someone who shares yr joy and sadness... someone who is willing to help volunteeringly when u need one. A friend wont stab u in the back when things happen, they will help u when u need one, scold u when they know u r in the wrong.
Friends are priceless, I wont put a tag on to it. and i dun wish see a price tag on me. Dont expect returns when u plan to help a friend. If u expect, at least make known that u want a certain returns for helping him/her.


*** continue my story***
After supper i join kaka, michelle and her friends at KTM. Kaka going china for a week or 2, business trip... sure gonna miss her... *sob*
chatted till 2+am... decided to go home.... a long ride... i speeded for a while... when there's a lot of cars... slow ride when i'm alone on the road... thinking her words... still cant convince myself.....

*shi gu bu hua de razzy*

FRIDAY!!!!

a sad news to start my friday...
hope my 2nd cup of coffee can end my day at work in peace...
"today" might not end the way i want... i just want to have it well spent with my real friends... outsiders!!! KEEP OUT!!!

i know i might sound harsh.. i've been hurt... and never want to get hurt again... pls understand... even if the wound has heal... the scar is still there... it will never be the same again. our characters is like that and i dun wish to change myself in order to "plastic surgery" this wound... I want to be true to myself... i want to answer for my feelings, my decisions. dun force me.



have this habit of biting myself since young... it hurts but the taste of blood calms me down... devilish me... i feel so "vampire"... izzit the reason y i like lava red?? lol... once heard from the dentist tat its not good.. might cause ******... but cant seem to stop this habit... wahahaha

sad...

just got a call from *****... was shocked to hear it from her mouth...
******* did mention something to me a few weeks back... but not affirmative.
she might be giving up her relationship becos of the ***** ****.
she dun even know whether she can make it till then...
symtoms she has i too have... does it mean i too gonna leave this world too??
just take things easy... nobody knows their tomorrow... maybe i kena accident and leave the world the very next day... who cares abt the future?? what matters is today... TODAY!!! be happy everyday... I wanna see my friends happy... i've got one sad friend today... i'm sad too... i dun want to see another friend leaving me... i rather i go first.

Its friday!!! another happy n nua day... another sad day for me...
Happy weekend my friends.... be happy

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indecisive...

haiz... my indecisiveness... i hate it.. i hate myself... always hurt the ones i loved... argghh!!!

RAZZY!!! WAKE UP OR GO BACK TO SLEEP!!!! stop dragging n dragging n dragging!!!
U R TIRING YRSELF N THE ONES U LOVED!!!!

i dun like this feeling.....

woke up with the hollow feeling in my throat... oh no... drank a cup of salt water... hope can bring it down... reached the office... bought a packet of stepsils... hope can cure it...

i'm so alone... its so quite here... those i know left... no one to talk to... no one to approach. he is busy... have to wait n wait n wait.. wasting my time... yes... boss want me to print out and list down the work done and ask the person in charge to sign... easier for him to tag a price on... feels like a primary school student... have to report here and there... somehow $$ is not well spent here... haiz... feel so slooooow... no mood to eat... bun n coffee,location carpark to end my lunchtime..

tired... sad... hate this feeling... felt like a ball being thrown around...

miss girlgirl again... how i wish i'm with her in paradise now... its so meaningless staying alive in this stagnant world.

lonely.. i'm so lonely..... *sob*

sudden cravings

sudden cravings for durian n coffee... arrghhH!!! gonna sleep... nitez bloggie....

life is like coffee

lifespan of coffee is ard 5mins... after 5 mins... u cant get the aroma...u cant get the best taste.... life too... u wont know how many 5 mins u have... treasure every moment u have.... i treasure my family, my friends, my coffee, my rides...

DO U?

still cant bring myself to commit....

think a lot... still cant convince myself to commit into a relationship... went to visit ah ma just now... she's so happy tat ah yang finally got married...i know she is hoping i'm next but no thanks... hehehe
... ah yang is the eldest among the cousins... follow by me, ah yan, xiaomei, my brother soonseng, bernard, ah wei, benny, ah zhen, my brother junwei, ah leng, ah long, melverick and ah girl ...

next is xiaomei and ah yan.... xiao mei engaged last year... got her flat 2 mths ago.. going to renovate the new home soon... we all kept rushing her to get married fast... hehe... ah yen is all ready to go... just tat her gf havent nod her head... lol...

me, ah soon, bernard, ah wei ah leng n ah long still not ready... even my youngest brother once had a gf... n ah zhen ditched 2 guys.... wahahah!!! the other 2 still underage... lol...

pleasures in life... a cup of good coffee, a good friend, a nice place to sit down n listen and smell the air of nature... the rides... tat is all i ask for... =]

July 24th

time flies... almost lost my mum 8 yrs ago when i was in poly first year... glad tat she's still with me now... "Guan yin dan" tat day... yesterday too "Guan yin dan"... my cousin's wedding n lunar birthday... so happy for him... he looked in his 30's despite his age... 1 yr older than me... my grandmother say he look like Fei yuqing... wahahaa!! yes... did look a bit like him... if he's plumper... reached my aunt's place at 830am... still in sleepy mode... saw my other cousin's girlfriend... all of us kept teasing n asking her when's their turn?? hehe.. just waiting for her to nod her head... my cousin still waiting for her... didnt know the 2 brothers so devoted to their gfs... ard 9am the bride n bridegroom came... we all hide in the room... chinese custom... must "hui bi" when the newly wed couples comes home... until they are in their room. anyway... me n a few of the cousins dun really like the bride... havent married already sandwich my cousin... a few times my cousin quarrelled with his mom becos of her... but anyway.. aunt didnt say anything... so let them be... went home after the buffet lunch... and slept till 5pm... went for a quick shower.. dressed up.. still deciding to drive or not to drive... my brother wants to drink.. me too.. but still decided to drive cos it will be quite late after the dinner... cant find the carpark.. holland a bit... luckily we are still early... went in... the older generations suggested we split tables.. young ppl one table n the older one another... yeah!!! first time all cousins having dinner together... though we meet each other 2~3 times a year, but we dun feel like strangers... of all table... can see ours is full of drinks... beer, red wine, for the "adults" orange juice for the young ones... i had 2 glasses of red wine... Good stuff!!!... 2 of my cousins got a bit drunk they drank 6... my brother "high" too they drank 6 too.. lol... i kena sabo by my cousins when the DJ asked for riders on stage... hehe... i was asked to mimic the sound of a harley davidson bike... *pengz* got my prize and went down the stage... next. we sabo my brother n one of my cousins... single and available... they did a dance n catwalk.. woo!!! didnt know my brother can dance so well.. later he claimed tat he was a bit "high".. tats y he dare to do it.. wahaha!!! later from our table... we can see our uncle crying when they are talking about their childhood... we felt sorry... all the kids went to him n sayang him... bottoms up with him... he got drunk n refuses to go home... my mom doted this brother most n he listens to my mom... tsktsktsk...luckily we stay near... his son n my 2 brothers helped him home... he behaved like a kid when drunk... a bit "sajiao" have to sayang him n talk to him nicely then he will listen... lol... reached home at ard 1230am... still feeling very full... but too tired till i drop dead on my bed...

bored... no mood... excited

budd mc still... *hugz* hope she get well soon... bbb miss mommy...
only 2 person in opit today... i can happily blast my speakers.... sing my song... yesterday boss around have to guai guai sing softly... kekeke... last night browsing the web looking for good lobangs... hmmm... still deciding... still calculating... sometimes really cannot tahan myself... money earn is for spending!!!! y so calculative... but still... i cant convince myself to pay the extra interest... even down to $100 ... my heart pain... wahaha!!! very very stress when i key in 24, 36, 48, 60, 72, 84!!!!! *pengz* cant i just "xiao xiao sa sa" just do it....

fazer... 36
R1...... 60
STX..... 84


diaooooon.... still trying to convince myself...
o god... ke lian ke lian wo ba.... let me strike toto, big sweep or 4D ba!!!

woo!!! wat a day!!!

dunno y... am i excited or wat?? signed up for 3ncr yesterday!!! yeah!! happy happy!!! finally another long ride... something i've been looking forward to but still in a dilemma whether to go or not... havent tell my parents... they sure dun allow one.. hehe... anyway... just gonna go at least once this lifetime...

dye my hair last night... shared with my brother.. hehe... he so cute... so excited tat his birthday is coming soon... finally can enroll class 2b le... yeah!!! promised him i'll bring him to LAB buy helmet before he enrol... he sweat bigtime... cannot use mum's personal helmet... maybe he pass buy him a fullface ba... keke...
gonna make a pair of specs for my rides... dun think my frameless can tahan for long.. keke... da chu xue le!!!

cant sleep... whole nite didnt sleep.... sink in bed for 6+hrs.. hugging bbb... toking with her... and it gave me the *sayang* look... I LOVE BINGBONGBIANG!!!! *muackz*

A msn me... last night "she" was at 85... telling her stories again.. muahahaa!!! not tired meh?? but still i'm glad that thought heard her story asked for mine... Thanks =] a bit tired though repeating the same thing over n over again... anyway... i dun feel hurt anymore... totally removed her from my list... hehe...

another monday bluezz....

y cant i have the best of the 2 worlds... contradicting... but... have to decide between the 2... haiz... just hope that the best come in and i can have what i hope and expected... greedy me...

totally monday blues... managed to complete 3 updates and 2 design stuffs... boss as usual made in input.. and "wuala" tats the feedback clients gave... muahahaha!!! wat to do...?? u r the one delaying the project,.... wat can i say... y cant he get some nicer n designy projects.... kinda stagnant... corporate corporate n more corporate webbies... sian... u want fast this is wat i can give u... so dun complain... sometimes dun think i'm a designer.. i'm just a tool.. YES a tool... they give their idea n i do according to their wish... damn... yes.. this is the real world.. and when the "head" see $$$$ more then the actual work itself... this is wat they will get... arggghh!!! i feel bad... budd had a fever... oh no oh no.... hope she feels better tml after a good rest....


long long time never sing K liao... long long long time never swim liao....
lazy razzy's birthday coming soon...
i want a **** **** *, a ** or a *****.... siak siak... no need to get it on the day itself... saving for them...

another day gone....

woo... wat a sleepy day... slept till 1130am!!! had my breakfast/lunch n watch initial D vcd till i fell asleep.. till ard 3pm.. jos called jio me to jb makan... met them at 430pm went to buy birthday present "Clinique Heart" perfume... RM110... Thanks Jos for accompany me to buy present... lucky share with friend .. went makan KFC... hmm... not much diff leh.. chicken definately fresher... but over all... Ok lah.. :p

jos, joshy n neo went for movies after the dinner... so i came back SG myself... hehe.. didnt know its so easy to go holiday plaza... squeeze n squeeze between cars... past one junction n a car in front of me jam brake and turn to my lane... i jam brake to avoid him.. can feel my wheels locked... can hear the gear "kalakala"... lucky theres no car beside me... still got enuff space to squeeze through... *phew* i "diao" the driver when i rode past the car... actually not totally his fault lah... kekke..

not much jam at the customs... pump RM4 worth of petrol n proceed to the customs... and chiong all the way to junction 8 to meet my friend for DINNER!!! saw shareen's ex S4 at the carpark... parked beside it and took a picture... the tweety bird sticker and the engine sticker taken down... look very very stock...

yes... had 2 dinner today... didnt finish my food... very very spicy ramen... long time never eat spicy food... taboleh tahan... played with my friend's daughter... so adorable... hehe. a bit attitute but cannot escape the power of FOOD!!! muahahaa!!!

after dinner... met small jacq at the pasamalan when i was on my way to the carpark... hehe.. she's so cute!!! chatted for a while and she went to look for her friends... me.. took my bike and shoot back home alone... so stone now.. sleepy but have to wait for my food to digest first before i go bed... argghh!!! SINS!!!!

Wat a day

Pontian trip cancelled due to rainy day... the place we plan to go is muddy and unsafe to ride there... went to change my air filter.... woo.. can feel the difference in the pick up... went back home n surf surf chat chat... later eien jio us to JB play go kart... happyhappy... finally no need to nua at home... 1st link as usual... jam again.. i'm late for 5mins... but its ok.. someone even later than me.. muahahaha!!!! **** was there early... later then i know that ******** is joining us too.... i was like "oh no" and was hoping to maybe change of plan we go tian lai from 1st link.. cos its kinda awkward for them to meet... but **** said its ok... so we proceed to the destination.... just a short 10km ride i think... reached there... woo!!! the kid can play better than adults... POWER!!! quickly too out my camera and "snap snap snap" hehee... after some "WOW" we decided to put out butts on the small machine!!! adults 80cc RM30 for 10 mins... kinda X but... worth the first try... around 8~10 of us on the circuit... i'm a safe driver... kena lap big time lol... 2 close shave but managed to "siam" in time... my brakes not working... but still able to play drift.... muahahaha!!! like tat feeling... but cant do it on my car... =P

after the race... saw ******!!!! OMG!!! **** is upstairs... after his race... he came upstairs too... an awkward situation... the 3 of them... at the same place... can see tat **** is trying to avoid seeing him... can see the "chang sang gan" in ****... i in a way block between them... and suggest we should go... "HUNGRY" so we make a move to tian lai... "holland" again.. muahahaha!!! fianlly after a nice 60+km ride... we reached tian lai... it was ard 7pm when we reach... ordered our food and "chiong ah" black pepper crab came in last.... kinda small today but still taste good... tabao back for my family... mum n dad likes it... just suggested we drive to tian lai one day...my treat... think i should be able to find my way there.... but at least i know how to go home from there now.... kekeke...

went home after top up... had a nice shower and saw sam's sms.. seletar dam at 1115pm.... goosh hair still wet... quickly dry it as much as i can n wack my way to the dam.. hehe... 2stroke n 4stroke feels different... tried to play corners on my phantom... hehe... tyre a bit small.. still cannot make it... "its the rider...pengz" reach the dam... sam, stef and jessie were there.. later sam's friend came followed by jacqjacq... long time no see her le... hehee...

*creative people are weird* i like tat sentence... am i weird??? hmmm ... lolx

started to drizzle... we set off to JK to la kopi... then went home after that.... feel so alone when i rode my way back home... so cold and sleepy... but still wack my way back home... got pissed by this driver... making right turn without check for on coming cars... he jam brake when he saw me... on my lane... i was like 1metre away from the car... can feel my back wheels drift when i ebrake... lucky didnt skid... quickly check left and change lane... by the time i at my carpark.. i can feel my heart beating fast and "ka neng" hahaha!!! sinked in my bed when i got home.... kinda dozed off when i sms jacqjacq... didnt know wat i key in also.. last thing i remembered is some funny characters when i tried to key in "nitenite"... want to cancel sms also cannot.. kekeke...

FRIDAY!!!!

YEAH!!! Finally.. friday again..
this week is so sloooooow..... wait n wait for so long for this day...
no mood to work.. *spank razzy backside*
rounding later... hehee... i love it.. lucky last night went payou... dun have to worry abt petrol later... should i go NCR??? still thinking... must quickly find a roommate to confirm the trip... or should i join the other group??

anyway..... have a great weekend everyone!!!
V.(^0^).V



*back to sleeping mode*

duh...

met up with some girls just now for dinner... kinda got a shock from one of them asking" hinting me if i'm going to ********* after dinner .... i was like "HUH".. apparently someone has been spreading rumours abt me... and some kaypoh ppl hint hint to see if its true... COMEON LOR!!! I RATHER U ASK ME STRAIGHT THAN BEATING ROUND THE BUSH!!!! i did nothing wrong lor... my consciences is clear... hate those back stabbers i know who u r and not just one... u jealous or wat??

:box: :box: :box:

mememe...

Sun in Virgo, Moon in Libra

Both inwardly and outwardly you are tranquil, easy-going, practical, and full of common sense. Your individuality is essentially hard-working and subservient. Your subconscious mind is afraid of taking the lead in human enterprises and prefers to play a secondary role. Your inner self is constantly preoccupied with detail, and this should make you a very careful worker. Outwardly, you are a Libran person. People view you as companionable and compliant. When you love someone, it is more as a compliment to yourself than to satisfy any deep emotion. You are usually very diplomatic and tactful in your dealings. You work better in professions that require culture and cleverness rather than anything physically rough. You could become a very good diplomat or contact person.

There is some tendency to indecision and hesitancy. You find it very hard to say no, and you regret your decisions. You try very hard to please other people and many times you fail through your own anxiety. The key to a better development of your being is to harmonize your inner intellectual qualities with your socially oriented personality.


Ascendant in Taurus, Venus in the Fifth House

At the time of your birth the zodiacal sign of Taurus was ascending in the horizon. Its ruler Venus is located in the fifth house.

Taurus is the second sign of the zodiacal belt and within its rulership there are determination, common sense, possessiveness, and a tendency to seek material wealth.

You appear as a solid, secure, even slow person, fond of moving along tangible lines, disliking abstract speculation.

You are loyal and steadfast in your affections. Your overall attitude is amiable, exhibiting much patience in dealings with other people. You are a sensuous person who likes to indulge in healthful but always pleasurable activities. In spite of this, however, you have a tremendous capacity for exercising both will-power and physical strength. A major difficulty you encounter in life is due to your inflexibility; once you have made up your mind, you are closed to all other suggestion or opinion.

Venus, the ruler of your life, was found located in the fifth house; the house of love, pleasure and children.

This is regarded by traditional astrology as one of the best positions of Venus. It directs you toward success and towards obtaining benefits through art and related areas.

Harmony in domestic matters is another feature of Venus here.


Sun in the Fifth House

The Sun was found in the fifth house at the time of your birth. This is a very significant location for the Sun.

There seems to be a progressive and gradual expansion of your feelings, especially the generative ones, throughout the years. Your life is oriented towards success in matters of enterprises, businesses, speculations, and society and pleasurable activities. Your love life promises to be very rich and will list many rewarding emotional attachments. In love you conduct yourself with dignity and certain poise.

Your pride is very sensitive in matters connected with your emotional nature. You are easily injured if your possessiveness and majesty in love is threatened. You can be very magnanimous and forgiving with the object of your love, and you will extend many positive qualities along with natural protection and strength.


Venus in the Fifth House

Venus was found in the fifth house at the time of your birth. At first glance this denotes rich, intense, and pleasant emotional events that will enhance your psychic nature. You are a person who could be regarded as fortunate in love and very successful. Whereas Venus grants the basic capability to reach full enjoyment from love and emotional involvements, it also indicates a tendency to be somewhat inconsistent, volatile, and changeable in romance. Although you are capable of loving intensely and with devotion, the tendencies are to lose interest after a certain time. You would be in a better position if you could exert some control over your span of interest.


Saturn in the Fifth House

Saturn was found in the fifth house at the time of your birth. Circumstances may oblige you to appear humble and patient in connection with love affairs and as a response to obstacles that will come between you and the object of your love.

It is possible that unless you can exert good control of your temperament, the obstacles can create a response from you that is harsh and severe. You must view these matters in light of the spiritual cause and effect.

We advise you to be very careful in business speculations and not to become involved in operations that have a risky element.

You should make an effort to become involved with the various human experiences of love so that your communicative power is increased. You must be sincere with yourself. Secretly you nourish the desire to be involved in human situations, but you apparently have lost the ability to relate to other people. A little more openness and confidence in your loved ones could be a good course to follow.


Moon in the Sixth House

The Moon was found in your sixth house at the time of birth. Among other things, this indicates that throughout life your work duties will be varied, multiple, and require contact with many people. Healthwise, this may denote a propensity to suffer through excessive changes and motivations.

Psychologically, this position inclines you to act through subordinate roles rather than those of leadership.

A final psychological trait is a secret desire to become known professionally.

hard topic of the day.....

got a hard topic for the day... What Do I Want?

This is the answer when ppl ask me what i want... i will reply "I want to be Happy"
But how to be happy?? Tats a tough one... I want to ride. I want to tour. Most importantly, i want to see my fasmily n friends to be happy. Its even harder. I feel sad when i see then troubled... I want to ride different bikes... see places that i've never been... is planning for my future an act of selfishness??

almost 2yrs ago... my best best friend left me... though its just a bird but its the only one tat understands me. took me weeks and months to packed up my sadness and moved on.... 6mths ago... another friend left me... took me days to convince myself tat she's gone forever.. told myself to ride for her. 2mths ago... a touring friend left us... almost wanted to quit riding... glad that i have a group of friends with the same interest motivate me to move on and carry on riding... i love being a sweeper... i want to see my friends reach their destination safely... I'm happy when i see my friend's sms reply "HOME"

Just lost a friend who dun treat me as a friend... am sad.. very sad... but i'm happy that i have other friend who showed they concerns and really care for me... i know who my friends are and i know who deserves my love more... LOVE MY PALS!!!!

i love my family... or rather i love my mum... i want her to be happy... she wants us to be happy... got food to fill our stomach got shelter over our heads when we sleep... just a simple wish from her... settled the food prob... now have to settle the roof problem... dad did it again... pissed but wat to do?? still thinking... gonna have a talk with my brother and mum... not going to keep quiet again.... will i be happy?? need to know his answers... if he still not gonna do anything about it?? made plans for them... my mum n brothers... just need to do one more thing before i make my final decision... if this is my destiny.. so be it...

*look for william if...*