monday... super blur n busy day...

woke up at 9am as usual... wash up, dressed packed my babies in the bag n left for work... made a half tank cover n a tailbag for my dr and was so excited to fix them on my bikey.. reached the carpark.. feeling so weird... y?? was puzzled for a few seconds before i realised where's my "head"?? damn.. forgot to take my helmet.. went back home, took the helmet n walk out again... on the way, i'm still felt weird... must have forgotten something again... stopped my the staircase... search my pockets, search my bag n damn.. forgot office keys... want back home again... took what ever remembered and quickly walk to my bike.. fixed the goodies up and off to work... reached office a little late almost 10am... worried that client might call.. so quickly grab the phone n put it next to my laptop... prepare for the battle of the week... wanted to format the laptop.. but still some minor stuffs to work on.. so carry on with whatever i'm left with... got a few panicky moments when trying to get a site up and at the same time trying to login to the client's site... error logging in.. damn.. till now... time 11.13pm and i'm here still cracking my brains on how to log in to the server!!!! ah!!!!

dilemma... i dun wish to get hurt... again...

a year passed... though even in my dreams i dreamt we are friends again but i'm in a dilemma... she's leaving soon and not coming back that soon... specifically wanted me to go for the gathering... i know the accusation that i feel i'm not guilty of will come to me again if i face her... call me petty or a coward.. i dun wish to get hurt again... the scar is still deep inside me and i'm still trying hard to get it healed... no matter what.. although i have apologised to her over msn.. but i feel i owe her a face-to-face apology... should i go??