downtown east

been so long since i last step into downtown east... memories starts refreshing... califonia hot dog... the "kopitiam" style laksa stall.... i miss her so much...

surprise from mom

woke up late today... brush n turn on my PC... mom came in n told me... brother going japan on 29th Dec... going to visit his japanese "girlfriend" oh gosh.... i missed it again... better not go be the "light bulb" hehe... hope everything goes fine... we all like this girl... so cute and friendly...

again... went to see bikes yesterday afterwork... tempted to get... a bike i will last think of...but the price is @_@

26K+ on the road... but surprised that they are willing to take my bike at such a high price considering the mileage without me bargaining for it.... kaka told me to get... she knows i super duper gian to upgrade... but... when i got the $$$ first... went to LC.. met juvin the 2nd time... she got her S4 for a few weeks... and i was sharing my worlds of touring on my S4 with her... while sharing.. i reflect to myself... y the urge to upgrade while i'm still enjoying my current ride... let my dream bikeys' dream for the owner for a little while longer ba....

went 2nd link pump... tried one of the rider's FJR.. woo... think i can... anyway.. he's gonna cut seat.. maybe i try again after he did tat... tried cbr1000rr... she's thinking of downgrading... "TAT WAS FAST!!!" i cant imagine the amount of $$$ she gonna lose for making that decision... asking me whether i'm interested to get it or not... nope.. i rejected.. i cant pillion on that bike.. no way i'm gonna get a bike and i cant pillion my mom n brothers... anyway... she's planning to get the same bike as her bf... kinda shock... 3 getting the same bikey in less than a mth... woah!!!

Follow your heart!! Believe in yourself, do what you feel best

we are here to learn lessons and the world is out teacher, your life is a perfect reflection of your beliefs, The moment you get too attached to things, people, money... you screw it up. When you fight life, life wins. I admit i almost screwed things up... cos i care too much... wanted all the best for my friend and sort of neglect her feelings... begin to let go and let her soar... happy for her.. she did it... All by herself... Till now.. i'm still unable to let go of $$$... paying installment is the last thing i want... imagine scrimping and saving every month just becos i have to pay for my bike... stressed... y not save without forcing yourself to miss your fav. movies... eat your fav. food... go on holidays with your best friends... u will still get your fav. bike... just that u get it later... I'm still injecting these thoughts in my brain... i dun need a bigger bike S4 is good enuff... i will only get a bigger bikey when i can afford it and i will not be stressed fearing that i might not be able to pay for the bike loan... go for rides... This is hard but i have to start somewhere... went to bike shops and view bike since i got my class 2 licence... HAYABUSA, STX, FAZER, R1, R6, GS DAKAR, CBR1000, ELECTRA GLIDE, NIGHTROD... people has been injecting temptations into my brain... asking me when i'm upgrading... keep selling the bikes to me... I WANTED TO!!! but i just cant force myself to slave for my rides for the next 3~7 years... i want to go for trips... i want to go track... i want to see the world... i dun want to restrict my dreams now becos i am STILL paying for the bike and not able to go becos i'm low in $$$$$
Earn now, pay later is always better than buy now, pay later... at least u dun feel that stress...

How do you love people? Just accept them, dont change them.. that's the true them... our mission in life is to change ourselves for the better... not change others to make yourselves feel better.... i love people who open up their thinkings to me... they are confident and do not care of what others think of them... i like those people... I admit i'm not really such a person for the start... i lack of self confidence... i used to feel so sad when people say i'm plump and so short, always see me wearing black tshirt n jeans... but i will always comfort myself by telling myself... how many people can do 50 situps in a minute? How many people can do flex-arm hang for 55secs? How many people can swim 45laps? Why make yourself so unhappy? slowly i began to share "myself" with others and notice that they dun really care how plump i am... they care who i am. From then i know "size doesnt matter"... i'm just taking things too hard...

every event has the potential to transform us, and disasters have the greatest potential to change our thinking... Act as if every event has a purpose and your life will have a purpose. I've change my life n thinking since i started hanging out with my bike friends... all from different backgrounds, different ages, different thinkings... It was like "WOW!!! how come i didnt think of it?? Can liddat meh?" etc... been keeping myself to this small area for like 24 years and a sudden exposure really changed me a lot... i'm used to be a 3 layered photoshop file.... now maybe say 10 layered and i'm still adding more in me. I believe i can handle bad circumstances better than before... because i learn from previous experiences..

Every person who walks into your life is a teacher... even if they drive you nuts, they teach you because they show you where your limits are. How true... I have a lot of teacher, my boss is one of them... always drives me crazy... OT, DEADLINES (not datelines) change our designs.. sometimes make it look so shitty (i admit sometimes it does looks better)... ppl will say "your boss is a creep, so sneaky, take u all for granted, make u all no life, Y u still work for him?" I told others "no choice lah, work place nearer and go work late he also wont gilibala much lah" in actual fact... i love the company... learn a lot from the bosses and the clients they brought to me... they drives me NUTS even more... but that is where i learn and test my limits... i dun have good temper... but i managed to control it whenever i can... i can still remember when i got so damn pissed and stress... i will go to the toilet and cry and punch the ceramic tiles.... a quick and painful way of destress n let out... no more now... i learn to accept it and take it as a lesson...although i still feel stress at times but at least i know i will learn something at the end of the day... When you get better, the game gets bigger...

soft toys... they have feelings too...

soft toys are not only soft toys... they have their own characters too... they have feelings too... they are very good companions and secrets keeper too... i have 20~30~40~50 of them... but only a few tat i really loved...i love BBB.. though not mine... but really love its mischevious... like her mum... wahaha!! loved teh peng n cha cha... they are the quiet ones... patiently listen to me... my complains... my feelings... happy for me when i'm happy... sad for me when i'm pissed... really loved them...

guess wat... my brother is chit chatting with his japanese "girlfriend" over msn... chiobu sia... happy for him... hope everything goes well n here's my sister-in-law... wahahaha!!! YURIKA chan... another soft toy lover... hehee...
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work... never ending...

gosh... finally got some form working when boss is not in until 555pm... he came back.... still ok.. promised client tat i will send her the changes before i go off... work till ard 7pm.. he came in n told me to do another project... need to email to client asap... ya right.... i stayed not cos of that extra project... i stayed to keep my word... ignored him and carry on with my stuffs... abt 30mins later he came in n see wat i'm doing... feeling so damn pissed then... wat the hell.. u think i surf surf or wat? its already off office hours... doing OT for u is a bonus... dun take me for granted.... finally managed to finish wat i'm supposed to do... email the client n cc him a copy... then work on his extra project... took me ard 30~45mins... quickly upload n email him before i rush off... ya can sense he is not tooo happy... but still... 11hrs sitting in front of the pc.. i'm tired... my eyes are tired.. so damn freaking hungry and cold and my neck is killing me... have to use bbb and a pillow to support my poor neck.... feel like chopping it off... aargghhh!!! ANGRY!!!! friday again... hope its gonna be a nice weekend... *pray hard*

3 yrs + 19 day....

cant sleep last nite... finally couldnt hold it back anymore... the lonely feeling came and tears started flowing.... been 3yrs n 19days since girlgirl left me.... still couldnt forget her... pictures n screens kept swapping past my mind... how we played... how she died... how i wish i can see her again....

do remember to pick me up when my day has come ya...
love ya...

my NSR!!!

Finally saw my ex SP on the road... 3 yrs.. really missed that baby.... glad that the owner treated the bike with care.... BUT!!! y the box!!! lol...

what am I??

waited for 1hr+ at LC fodcourt... no one reach... left at 845pm to fetch my brother home... tired and got this phonecall from C. knocking off soon and asking me out... told her dun think so... she later command me... cannot... must go out with her n maybe jio D. need my help help her post picture... i rejected n ask her to try go to the website n do herself cos i wont want to access to her personal web photos and forum access.... she say dunno... say will email the files to me n i do for her... diaooon... totally ignore wat i said.... then told her i need to d/c hungry n tired... she then allow me to d/c n say will call me later to go out... really go mad... i'm not yr maid!! nOt yr servant!!