decisions.. desicions n more decisions...

a very nua friday... no mood to work.. but luckily managed to get wats supposed to be done DONE.... happy... knock off on the dot... took a cab to fetch my bikey... glad that its in good condition again... took a slow ride home... happy.. sing song on the way back.. lalallaa.... tired... reach home.. had dinner n watch TV till ard 930pm.. set offf to LC foodcourt... woo.. saw the GS650.. nice... but dun have the "big-small" eyes tat i love... overall looks new n stylo.. but not my type... the 1150 more stylo.. tsktsk.. sorry.. i'm more an appearance person.... i'll go for the looks then to the specs....

waited for ard an hour... shareen rode her bike to the foodcourt... DAMN!!!! SO FAST GOT HER BIKE LIAO!!!! ANGRY!! the day before still told me still deciding n trying to sell off her bike... now she's on that big machine!!! ANGRY!!! Naive me still believe wat she said... i went n "strangle" her for not sharing her "joy". After a while... ANOTHER ONE!!!! same bike... adek's .... of cos i'm not as angry cos she didnt hide or lie to me cos we seldom keep in contact.... kakak's "adek" fireblade skidded last week.. n really quite in bad shape.. so she might as well get a new bike... happy n really respect her... woo... she's shorter than me.. but she can really handle the bike well.. RESPECT... i sat on her bike... with the cutted seat... only managed to tiptoe.. but cant put to stand... arghhh... i'm not good... very tempted to get one.. but after some cool down... Phew... its afterall not my fav... if were to get a sportsbike.. i rather go for a r6 or r1.... cos looks nicer... i love the r1's headlight.. FIERCE!!! finally everyone sat down together n talked about the bike... suddenly saw "her" sitting with another group quietly... she's in pink... slimed down a bit... looks pale... wanted to say hi.. but i think our "coldwar" havent end.. n i dun think i will end it cos its not my fault... just her wishful thinking that leads to all these misunderstanding... i dun blame her for this... maybe naive n flickminded me gave her hope n let her have this thinking... still... i dun like ppl to plan my stuffs as if they belongs to them. totally not in the mood...so decided to move off early to go 2nd link pump petrol... was abt to go find shareen.... "she" walked over to kelly to say bye... she's avoiding me... pissed too i think... we both try to fake we didnt see each other.... i waited a while after she's gone n we set off to 2nd link... a slow ride... cos shareen is still running in... she looks better on this bike than on her last ride... after custom... 2 guards stopped shareen n ask to check her licence... so i stop one side n wait for her... dunno y.. after her... the guard ask to check my licence too... hahaha... later chatted a bit... on bikes n the recent incident tat happened in KL... one of them knows the rider...

set off to GP... loved the cornering part.. but today.. shareen is slow... have to get used to the bike... so we told each other to slow down... hehhee... reach the other side of GP... pump petrol n she went to buy drinks n cigi... she offered me to ride her bike on our way back... i rejected... i cant pay for it if anything happens....

saw a group of sportsbikers... same bikes as shareen... 2 of them approached us n ask if we would like to join SBF... hahaha!!! shareen intro herself n they started toking abt the bike.. how to run in... what slider to get... blah blah blah... was kinda left out.. didnt want to join in the conversation... tired maybe... waited for abt 1hr they decided to make a move.. cos its 2am!!! so we waited for them to go off first.. then we set off... was talking n pushing my bike... forgot that he side stand up... drop my bike while trying to rest it.. not really drop.. just tat i cant pull it back so have to put it down slowly... DAMN!!!! a malay uncle n shareen came to help... started my bike.. thanked the uncle n off we go... scolded myself when riding.. so careless.. lucky not new bike... if not sure cry bigtime... after custom... stop at the road shoulder.. passed shareen her cigi... inspect my bike... lucky no scratches... only the left mirror... lucky i'm not riding her bike...

took a slow ride home... singing n shouting my jaychow's song... it been so long since i last went for a solo long ride...

do i care??

yes!! i do care... for my family, my friends and my bikes... but do they??? i dunno how to show my care verbally.. i cant expresses my feelings well.. afraid that i might say or express what i intemded otherwise....so sometimes i use my actions... sometimes "jing sheng shang de zhi chi".. i love my blog.. love msn, ym.. friendster... where i can express in words using fingers... muahhhahaa!!! i should be a mute... diaooon...

sometimes felt tat i'm left out... even i left myself out... life started to feel so meaningless n boring... planned for many many things and been so looking forward to it... it will take months n years to fulfill... dun even know if i can live tat long to fulfill them...

wat i want... bikes, a home i call my own... have a doggie and maybe keep a parrot to remind me of girlgirl... gonna make a pet's room for my pets... a fake tree if i cant find a plant with thick branches so that my parrot can fly from branches to branches freely... yeah... in my own room... will have my jigsaw puzzles frame on the floor... cool huh... and all my furnitures having the zen feel... have a big king size sofa bed if i can find one... so my doggie can sleep with me... good to have a nice warm cushion to hug... tsktsktsk... have a small kitchen with the kitchen walls half opened... built a small bar counter... can make it a small pub if there's party...

selfish me... all for myself... but think this will only come true when i'm ard 40~50years old or when my parents no longer needs me ba.... kekeke... old razzy.... zzzzZZZZZ..... skally stay in old folks home liao....

aches n pains....

dunno y back aching the whole day today... tried loosening the joints on the spine.. think i overdid it... had a pul effect on my lower spine... ouch!!! it sure hurts... have to start pasting koyok on my back again....

downstairs having funeral... same as the other time... its facing my room... just saw a big big moth outside my door... scared... feeling very uneasy now... supersticious me... hope i wont get another buang... *pray*
gonna go sleep... have to wake up early go bike shop put bike then go work... have to get a mockup done by 10am tml...

now... hmm....

sian sian sian... nothing to do after work.... surf surf surf... watch TV... back to no life mode.... sleep early please razzy...

july....

got to change my chain n spocket...lucky shareen swop with hers since she's letting go of her bikey.... at least save ard $100... but still... $$$$ out... cousin wedding end of july... gotta buy nice clothes for mum .... have to fork out ard $200 angbao $$$$$ (@_@)
anyhow $300~$400 gone...

save save save......

another pissed day....

damn freaking pissed... home browser internet broweser always auto close when i surf halfway... all i've type out gone... arggghH!!!! y always me... hated it... 3 new projects in 2 days... duh... rush like hell n he just came in.. throw 2 pieces of paper n ask me to scan... cant even wait for a while... 5 mins.. i just need to do the touching up... n SAVE.... duh... he just took the scanner out... ask me to scan using outside pc... i was like.. duh... wats the diff using the pc outside n using my pc??? u still need someone to do it!!! i got everything installed proper.. just need to plug n power up... y u need me to fix the thing outside n have to do the installation all over again??? pc too old cant even read the new hardware... PISSED... end up still have to bring back n connect to my pc.... waste 25mins of my time... hated the "inefficiency" feeling... ask me to manage.. end up U r the one messing up my schedule... ask u to do up something... u drag drag n drag somemore... all excuses.. still can play game somemore... pekchey... wat to do...

good n bad thing to have attachment students in the company... they are cheap labour.. yes... but dun let them handle n manage the clients themselves... especially when work is not completed n clients keep calling... now attachment over n clients keep calling... no indication from boss... he's not in??? he's no longer with us?? or his attachment over?? hate telling all these lies... ended up.. everyone blur... even the project coordinator also dunno wat to tell clients... how i know...

i believed in "dui zi yan dai ren kuan" but somehow i think ppl just take my believe for granted... expected us to come earlier n knock off late... u expect me to deliver on time.. i TOO expect u do do the same... set an example yrself if u want everyone else to do the same... sane thing when it comes to coming to work... u can come in late n go off early... i dun expect to have tat luxuary.. but... as long as i can finish wats expected... i hope i can at least knock off On-the-dot... i hope u dun interfer or expect us to stay late to make u feel happy.... i've done my part....
i'm a quiet person... always keep everything to myself.. miss my girlgirl...
i'm trying.... hope it wont be long....