12/10/2005

i felt bad... couldnt help much...
bad razzy... *abish*

sad..... blueblue monday

pissed with work today... totally blue monday when i received that few emails... damn.. can get much done this week... already rushing like mad n trying to find the minor mistakes in the design... hopefully wont kena sacarstic remarks again... n there he is thingkin its so easy to do those work... keep coming in n see how's the progress and keep asking me to call client... do this do that... do this tml.. do that the next day... go to this client's place on thursday... n go to tat client's place on friday... looks like i dun have to plan my schedule anymore... its never fulfilled... PISSED.... was concentrating on my work.. think hard how to do... suddenly just come in scare me... i swear my heart stopped for tat 2 seconds... today so free and come kajiao n ask us to generate more $$$ for him... ya right... u know how to comment... u know wats best... then U CHANGE IT YRSELF!!!! wat dunno how to use photoshop.. got so much time.. didnt even put an effort to go try... u seen me working on it for 5 years... 5 YEARS!!!! for goodness sake.... dun tell me u didnt even know... or u r just plain lazy n expect us to slave for u.... idiotic me already slaving like hell..no life for the past few years... i dun wish to continue that every day.. every week.... dun think that that amount of $$$ can buy 24/5.... i might as well go work as cashier at cold storage... for that same amount of $$$ and that amount of $$$ and with that number of working hours... at least i dun lose my freedom....

got totally trashed today when tat comment is made... my heart sunk... i know its the style.. i know it.. just that i still takes words too hard.... *abish razzy* dun play again