disappointed... sad... worried...

10.feb.2006
one of my riding partner met an accident last friday.... my heart almost popped out from my mouth... somehow that "lost" feeling is back... got even more worried when seeing the bike.... rushed to ttsh... took me 20+mins to find her.... heart almost stopped when i see her... bandages on her left from arm to toe... saw a big hole near the big toe... bleeding n not tended... saw her deep wound on the knee from far.... feel like scolding her for wearing bermuda n slippers while riding... but still... I thank god that she's ok... thank you... hope u will protect her and my other rider friends from harm n taxi drivers....

11.feb.2006
feeling so weird... paisei to be "dian deng pao" the whole sat... dun really feel comfortable when i see couples lovey dovey... i felt so bright and wanted to get myself out of the picture frame... they dun mind but i do... its so weird... keke =P

13.feb.2006
woke up late... met kakak for wash bike session then went to meet my sec school friends for dinner... nice chat but not too nice dinner... ex n not tat tasty... somehow starting to dislike food... eat again will tell myself at least 3 times a day.... dunno y... been having bad appetite since after CNY.... eat too much till i got dread with it???

14.feb.2006
first time celebrating v.day... though no valentine to spend with... no special feelings actually.. but somehow feeling lost when celebrating... mixed feelings.... got a few missed calls.. some smses yesterday n today... dun like it... especially when i dun know that person tat well... kinda weird when he ask kakak for permission to know me better... weird...

15.feb.2006
disappointed when hearing those words plonging out from her mouth... somehow i feel sad.. tat trust is somehow not secured in her heart.... maybe i'm oversensitive... anyway.. i gave up something in exchange for my dream... i challenged myself.. i will be successful...

i got so sad.. disappointed n worried...
one of my friends just confirmed tat she will collect her zx10 on friday... seeing her so happy.. i got worried... we chatted for hours... shared with her linda n grace stories ...almost gave up riding when linda is gone.. deep in my heart i prayed to linda... "i'm riding for u now"... tears almost flow out from my eyes.... i've lost 2 and dun wish to lose another... that bike simply just too powerful for her... even "racer" deem it overpower... 2 more days... hope she'll be ok... hope the ride is safe... 3 bikes will go rounding with her...
ride safe....

16.feb.2006
my rear tire punctured when i was on my way to 2nd link to pump my petrol... reaching the malaysia customs... felt some "damper" effect... took a quick glance on my 2 tires to see if there's any puncture while waiting for the custom officer to chop my passport... no signs... so i move off and less than 5 seconds... the "damper" effect got worse that i couldnt right in a straight line... and upon stopping my both feet are flat on the ground.. oh no!!! i told myself before i neutral n off the engine... my rear tire has gone flat... and eien has set off to the toll area... tried to call but keep having this active call barring... worried and pissed and couldnt find the stupid nail or watever crap tat punctured it... tried to push the bike and managed to find the hole... move a few more rounds before i confirm that this is the hole... told myself "lucky i got tire repair kit" didnt dare to use it cos... I DUNNO HOW TO USE IT!!! waited for a long time... eien still not back yet... so i took my chance and enlarged the hole... squeeze some glue in n tried to squeeze the "worm" in... tried all means n ways but just couldnt get it in... the worm broke into 2 and there goes my chance... left with one more but no guts to try again... better get someone experienced to do it... borrow the custom officer's phone to make a phone call.. but cant get through... went to the pay phone to make the call.. cant get through... blood was boiling inside me... super suay i told myself... saw eien walking to my bike... so happy.. saviour is here.. he helped me push the bike to a shelter place and try fixing the tire for me... all was well untile the "worm" broke n fell in the tire.. OOps... hehe... no choice... eien decided to go back to singapore n helped me get the better tire repair kit the pro riders use... in the mean time ask me to hog any big bike riders n ask for help... waited for quite sometime before i see 2 big blackbirds... one zoom passed me.. no chance to ask for help... but managed to get hold one the other one n WALLA!!! he is equipped... except for the air pump... luckily i have 2 canister with me... filled up the tire so tat he could fix the tire and filled the tire after the hole is filled with worms... waited for abt an hr...super hot n tired n thirsty... but didnt dare to leave my bike to get water as there are more n more bikes passing by... thinking that the custome will be jam in abt 30mins time... i took my chance and road to GP esso to top up my tank n tire.... NO AIR PUMP!!!! OH SHIT!!! try my luck at petronas.... lucky they have it... so filled the tires n tank n grab a bottle of 100plus to fill up my stomach... no time to remind myself tat i'm hungry... did the normal way... made a big turn via bandar nusajaya n top up my tank again before eien found me.... the tire is still leaking.... no choice... have to take my chance again... pump the tire to the max n rode back to singapore... hoping tat i will make it to KnT... but can start to feel the damper effect... along PIE... no choice... made our way to speedway... glad tat we made it... the mechanic tried to fix the hole.. but no choice... 2 worms still not able to fix it... so changed to M1 sportec.. cost me $200... phew... felt so relieved when its done... went to KnT... kakak met us there after work... felt so weak when she say she wants dinner... i havent even had my breakfast... so zooom!! we set off for a nice 3 course dinner and 2 rounds of teh haliah....

17.feb.2005
a very bad day since yesterday... today not good for those born in the year of the goat.... somemore "fan tai sui" laggi more suay... not everything is to my wishes.... so damn noisy outside the office... cant focus...

jia jia you ben nan nian de jing.... my dad keep wanting to squeeze $$$ from us for his hobby... A have problem with dad... B preparing to get thrown out of the house if she rides again.... C was banned for riding after the accident... again.. down to the bottomline... trust is not there....

im.feeling.so.down.sad.worried.nervous.excited.mixedup.happy.scared.confused......

v.day...

lonely... i'm so lonely.... met up with kakak and eien for "no vdayers" kopi session... poor us... caught david with a malay girlfriend from far... kaka tease them bigtime.. hehe.... zx10 abang came to join us.. kinda surprised... praying hard the ST 11 is not here.... *phew* he is one talkative abang man... scary..... got a few smses from him since yesterday... and 3 miss calls from him when i was on my way back from ktm... Oops.... later 1 sms from kakak... "hey... some1 msg me n ask permission 2 noe u better..." diaooon.... a bit "duh" when i saw it... not racist or wat... but some how... i sense a "buayaism" in him... *pray* get away get away....

KL trip support "tour langkawi"

slept for 3hrs before the ride... reach GP petronas at 7am... waited till 830am for the riders to gather before we set off... 1 st11, 1 cbr1000, 1 fjr, 1 k4, 3 r6, 1 fz6, 1 ninja, 1 zx10, 2 s4, and 2 srad... scary bigtime.. first time wack bigtime trying to catch up with the group.. averge speed 180~200km/h... hit 232km/h.. later tried 245km/h n i was "kissing" my helmet... cant go on any further... no bubble no more speed... untill i reach pagoh.. kena suan by the bikers... i blur blur thinking y give me cable tie untill kakak help to screw my number plate... kaoz!!! one of the screw flew off!!! *pengz* got freaked out... didnt dare to ride anything more than 180km.h after that...

reach KL toll... top up n saw tat "abang" we met at port dickson.. someone me n kakak hate... angry when we see him.... he took the lead n brought us to the hotel.. we didnt the check in n took a nice quick shower n off for our breakfast n lunch... abang arabi reach n joined us later... can see kakak so happy when she sees him.... he brought us to the shop selling helmets n stickers and all other bike stuffs.. got a big can or chain wax each for RM 35 which Singapore selling at SGD$25 ... wow!! bought 3 rossi 46 stickers!! hehe... went back to hotel n KO after tat... went into deep sleep... from 3+pm to 7pm... till kakak scream n jump on me to wake me up... abang brought us to their all time fav. TGIF for dinner.... YUMMY!!! especially the mudpie!!! went bk to hotel waiting for abang afif to come pick us up for a tour round KL on his mistubishi airtrek... reach at 1030pm... went to see the "bapos" in KL... kaoz... cannot make it... one look can tell is a guy despite the nice figures... went to this pub at "the curve" the live band is damn superb!!! later went to the nearby kopitiam for kopi.. chatted till 3+am n we went back to hotel to KO....

next day went to makan breakfast... pack up.. dump all our stuffs into one room.. and set off to the location where the flag off for the tour langkawi ride is held... one the way.. we pass by n had a cup of rootbeer float... abt 2hrs later started to rain.. we slowly walk to A&W for our second round n went bk to hotel... got our stuffs and wait for the rain to stop before we head back to SG...

average crusing speed 160~190klm/h squeezing between cars.. scary but shiok... K4 kena nail... tire still ok but he dun dare to wack 200+++km.h so managed to catch with him ..
reach esso at ard 11+pm... hungry.. no lunch n dinner... so went to KTM with kakak, and 2 of the other riders... chatted till 3+am before we headed home... KO till 2+pm the next day....