super shag day...

was so sleepy n tired yesterday after hours of surfing n nothing to do work... wats da point of having me there when u have enuff ppl to work on the projects... glad that situation did improve a little.. only got an hour's of "zou bo" time.. n the rest all rushing like mad due to some changes n cannot make up their mind mode.. 5+pm happily clearing whats need and with ammple time to go toilet n relax a bit before heading to collect my documents.. end up.. a rush work came up and a 20mins job turned to be a 2hr 30mins job cos i'm a action asp script idiot... was so damn irritated when i was there trying hard to solve the problem n everyone else were laughing away n chit chatting across the office... took my earplug n alas.. peace... still could not totally calm my heart... a pair of eyes constantly focusing on me.. i know.. n i super duper hate that kinda feeling that i once had. but what to do?

anyway.. i learnt something out of this company... at least they appreciate the efforts made.. a simple thanks and have a great weekend shuts down my stress for the day...

considered the first to reach work place at the design department.. *ahem* excluding the "directors" tired n shag after a 40mins ride frm home n focusing hard while squeezing between cars... luckily this is not my full time job... a few more months and sayonara... hope everything goes fine and no more shenton way for me..

raining since late morning.. DVD screening cancelled... met the 2 cute girls for kopi near my place. wat a good chitchatting and laughing session i had.. how i wish i can have this destressing session everyday after a hard day's work.

should i??

my DR settled, lesser stress... but still stressed... need to find more $$$ to clear my other loans...
thousands and thousands of "should i" keep popping in my mind for the past 1 week.. time no enuff, money laggi no enuff... time for my part time halfed cos of work... OT, OT and more OTs... though limit set but still no longer able to send out all 30 documents a day... at least my petrol is covered for... lesser stress... stressing between the 2 jobs... more n more stone i get.. boy, i need more sleep... seems like sunday is the only day i can sleep n rest after my part time... hopefully not like last sunday... 36 documents took me 5hrs due to rain... got totally drenched and no choice.. back home, changed to car and carry on... back home n KO from 5+pm till 9am the next day... any quicker way to earn $$$ ?

feel like cancelling my life and savings plan, all sucking my blood dry every month... when will i be more sensible and spend my $$ wisely?