do i care??

yes!! i do care... for my family, my friends and my bikes... but do they??? i dunno how to show my care verbally.. i cant expresses my feelings well.. afraid that i might say or express what i intemded otherwise....so sometimes i use my actions... sometimes "jing sheng shang de zhi chi".. i love my blog.. love msn, ym.. friendster... where i can express in words using fingers... muahhhahaa!!! i should be a mute... diaooon...

sometimes felt tat i'm left out... even i left myself out... life started to feel so meaningless n boring... planned for many many things and been so looking forward to it... it will take months n years to fulfill... dun even know if i can live tat long to fulfill them...

wat i want... bikes, a home i call my own... have a doggie and maybe keep a parrot to remind me of girlgirl... gonna make a pet's room for my pets... a fake tree if i cant find a plant with thick branches so that my parrot can fly from branches to branches freely... yeah... in my own room... will have my jigsaw puzzles frame on the floor... cool huh... and all my furnitures having the zen feel... have a big king size sofa bed if i can find one... so my doggie can sleep with me... good to have a nice warm cushion to hug... tsktsktsk... have a small kitchen with the kitchen walls half opened... built a small bar counter... can make it a small pub if there's party...

selfish me... all for myself... but think this will only come true when i'm ard 40~50years old or when my parents no longer needs me ba.... kekeke... old razzy.... zzzzZZZZZ..... skally stay in old folks home liao....