dilemma... i dun wish to get hurt... again...

a year passed... though even in my dreams i dreamt we are friends again but i'm in a dilemma... she's leaving soon and not coming back that soon... specifically wanted me to go for the gathering... i know the accusation that i feel i'm not guilty of will come to me again if i face her... call me petty or a coward.. i dun wish to get hurt again... the scar is still deep inside me and i'm still trying hard to get it healed... no matter what.. although i have apologised to her over msn.. but i feel i owe her a face-to-face apology... should i go??