FRIDAY!!!!

a sad news to start my friday...
hope my 2nd cup of coffee can end my day at work in peace...
"today" might not end the way i want... i just want to have it well spent with my real friends... outsiders!!! KEEP OUT!!!

i know i might sound harsh.. i've been hurt... and never want to get hurt again... pls understand... even if the wound has heal... the scar is still there... it will never be the same again. our characters is like that and i dun wish to change myself in order to "plastic surgery" this wound... I want to be true to myself... i want to answer for my feelings, my decisions. dun force me.



have this habit of biting myself since young... it hurts but the taste of blood calms me down... devilish me... i feel so "vampire"... izzit the reason y i like lava red?? lol... once heard from the dentist tat its not good.. might cause ******... but cant seem to stop this habit... wahahaha