理性 VS 感性

lived till 54 yrs old then realised what is 感性...
i buy bike is considered 感性 not enuff 理性..
he gambled away $20k~$30k he didnt regret he didnt say himself... if he havent lose that $$ the HDB flat would be fully paid for and he wont have that kinda problem...
he anyhow buy car without even discuss n kena tok $44k is 感性 he didnt admit...
now throwing out so much theory trying to force me to sell my bike.. for his 感性.. how confusing... feel like getting out of this house n stay away from his thinking...

complaining having his mom is 倒霉...
paying for his mother's bills at the old aged home is 倒霉...
having this n that of situation is 倒霉...

how would yr kids feel when they hear this?
am i considered 倒霉 for having such a father??
keep asking their children to give him $$$ to gamble away...
always give so much stupid problems n want us to clean his backside...
his father pass away he didnt even want to see him off the last journey...

till he is 54 years old then he realise and can tell me the story of 理性 VS 感性... isnt it too late?