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been having difficulty breathing for a few nights over the past 2 weeks.... windpipe area blocking?? sometimes woke up in shock trying to grasp for oxygen... oh great.. i'm dying... hopefully i can die in peace... never dared going to doctors to get myself checked... skally all funny illness come knocking on my doors... left foot hurts... rheumatism.. at my age.. haha.. my weather forecast... got wet just now when i'm on my way back from client's place... feeling so hot n cold now... sick razzy on the way... hopefully tomolo no rain.. pls!!!! got meeting in town area!!! hated meetings... but it did help pass my time fast... keke... all ready to go camerons... yeah!!!

haiz...

woke up in a daze... wat a grey thursday... so nice to laze on the bed... sleeping... huggging my pillow... got a meeting at 1045am... no choice... 930am have to wake up. wash up n change. raining very very heavily.. mum ask me to drive instead of riding... but no thanks... phobia driving in the rain is still there... even after 1 yr... slow ride to client's place... took me ard 25mins to reach.. quickly get change... lucky i was early... 5 ppl with 3 different ideas... dunno listen to whose... no point person to talk to... haiz.. extra work again... crap... meeting last for abt an hour... sian... now still in a stoney mode... how i wish i'm at home now on my nice little bed n sleep till the next morning... spend quite a lot for the past week... next week n next next week too... money no enuff...

itchy backside again... saw one of my dream bike posted in the forum... the fire relighted in me again... but... $$$$$ problem again...

oh god.. plzplzplz!! let me strike toto tml so that i can get hold of tat beauty...
*pray*