felt so helpless......

bills bills n more bills... i can breathe no more!!! never felt so helpless n finally saw myself such a spendthift when i was earning well years ago... shouldnt have bought so much insurance... shouldnt have allow my itchy backside controlling me...and many more shouldnt have... no regrets although the pinch is there... i hate monthly installment n bills... my personal spending is not even a quarter of the total expenses... blame it on myself... no more extra expenses please razzy... at least for the next 5mths... better buck up on yr part time... i dun see even a "3" coming in from the 2 weeks efforts... u r too slow!!! dun plan things on the smooth side.. plan on the harsh side... things wont be smooth sailing for u this year.. remember... dun hope for any extra incomes that will ease yr stress... work for it... not hope for it...

stay lean n mean....
step 1... minimise / stop as many monthly installments as possible
step 2... less entertainments
step 3... lesser meetups = lesser fuel expenses
step 4... walk more n travel less
step 5... eat more bread... wahahaha!!!


felt so stress n helpless whenever the calculator pops up in my monitor... I dun need help... razzy!!!! U BETTER BUCK UP!!!

got a part time!!!

wondering if i'm the first lady rider on despatch...
was very glad n happy that i found this document despatch job or rather a job that best fits my schedule... been to a few interviews weeks n months before but non justifies as much as this... first 2 days was fun, rode round my neighbourhood, quite a number of new things i never see before, like parks, kopitiams, some other neighbourhood shopping places... also i see different "backgrounds"... it was fun but personal feedback after these 2 days: i rode very "hiong" n a bit reckless... fell sick again after the 3rd day... flu + fever... after an hr or 2 under the hot sun... i'm too weak!!! *spank razzy* need more sunlight to provide more energy!!! i want to be more tan!!! duh... officially down after 5+pm in the evening... starting to give up after a few heartpains on my bikey... hard to kick start after 10+ engine on n off with in a few mins... got a flast rear tire... and started to ask myself: "does it justify? is it worth to do this?" angel n evil side of me were still battling hard to win my vote. a very good set of questions i received from friends, family n myself... "what other partimes are you looking for?, what kinda of working hours are you looking at? what else can you do?, Do you think these jobs u r looking at now justifies for the time you spent?, U need money ah?" started to worry even more when i see my aMo runs low after 5 days of intensive refueling due to the despatch job... $55 for this week... equivalent to my 2weeks transport allowance... been thinking a lot... calculating for umpteen times... i have to!!! stick to this untill i get a better job or till the biz is right on expected track. I just need someone to remind me again n again... thx..

just finished the last stack of documents... hey... i feel more toned, tones of sweat, need slightly lesser sleep, more energetic, shed 1kg due to the job + sickness in 3days.. (see the best slimming methods) at least i dun feel as useless as that few weeks back... i'm doing something now...
walked 10 times more i walk in a day, see 20 times more different ppl i see in a day, climb stairs 30 times more i climb in a day... =]

reminds me of my primary school motto... Strive to Succeed.. I will stick to it n live to it...

plans: downgrade to a better FC bike no more/cheaper installments lesser burden, even lesser touring after the desaru trip save more vitamin M, shed at least another 8~10kgs by jan next yr, give my loved one some surprises, lesser surgared stuffs... i have enuff sweetness in me...

Strive to Succeed..Strive to Succeed..Strive to Succeed..